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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 15, 2015 16:15:12 GMT
Grace just grinned at her captain’s slight smile. She hadn’t realized just how much she’d missed his many expressions. Even seeing him chained up to a hospital bed, a bit worse for the wear, she was thrilled to see him again. Truly, it had been too long!
His tone was teasing; but, the assessment was actually fair. “Well I’m too young to be paid! I’m technically a volunteer! The rules are much less strict with that!” Here there were stringent rules known as child labor laws. But that only applied if you were getting paid to begin with. And anyways, she certainly wasn’t working enough hours to call them into question! Typically, the Storybrooke hospital didn’t see all that much action. Although...There’d been much more work ever since the curse broke for sure! Although Grace couldn’t say she was pleased people were getting hurt more, she’d certainly been learning a lot; and, things were much less boring!
Yes, Grace would admit there were more and less interesting aspects of being a hospital volunteer. The filing was important and necessary but hardly enjoyable!
“I like to think I get paid in experience!” she teased although her words were also genuine. “It’s good for adventurous types to know how to patch people up!”
She chuckled when he said he didn’t want to keep her for too long. “As if you could keep me! This isn’t your ship captain!” Here she knew the land far better than him. There were plenty of nooks and crannies to run and hide in! And she’d wager none knew the forest better than her! Even as Paige, she’d been drawn to it, likely because as Grace she’d loved nothing more than spending time with Papa in the woods. So yes, she knew every inch!
Grace flashed a wicked grin when Hook asked for something pointy. Perhaps it was reminiscent as her time as a pirate where she’d perfected her lock picking sills; but, as Grace she always wore a bobby pin somewhere in her hair for just such an occasion! (Even before she’d been a pirate she’d fiddled with locks because Papa’s hat was curious and fascinating; and, she wanted to use it even after he’d locked it away in the trunk!)
In less than a second she slipped the pin out of her hair and handed it to him. “Here you go, Captain!” That task done, she held out a bag to him, smirking slightly. “I also took the liberty of collecting your clothes!” As hospital staff volunteer or not, she knew where patients' personal belongings were kept!
“Oh and something else to help!” She reached for her backpack and promptly unzipped it. It had been a lucky break that she’d...Okay...She’d been showing off hadn’t she? She might not be the world’s most stellar artist when it came to pictures; but, cartography was different! Rulers and the like were most helpful with map making! Papa had crafted many maps of Storybrooke during the curse which greatly impressed Grace. And she’d been bound and determined to map the town herself! Papa had been helping her; and, the maps looked pretty darn good if she did say so herself! And well...She’d wanted to show Henry what she’d accomplished! And as she’d come to the hospital straight from school...They were in her backpack still.
She extracted no less than 10 different maps. “I don’t know how familiar you are with Storybrooke. But this should help you.” She unfurled the top map to point to the hospital and draw a line between it and the sheriff’s office with her finger. “This is where you should find your hook.”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 15, 2015 0:23:49 GMT
Time..Time was distorted again. Ever since Papa left time had been...strange. In the Enchanted Forest after his disappearance, it had been the enemy. She couldn’t stand the thought of so much time passing, strangling the bonds between them, forcing apart their hearts. As more and more time passed, she got new memories; and, none of them contained Papa! It was like the memories of him were diluted by the new ones flooding in. She was pushed forward while Papa stayed in the past. She could see him in the mirror yes; but, that wasn’t the same! That wasn’t the same as being with him at all!
Then in Storybrooke, time had been frozen. Twenty eight years had passed and yet no one aged. Everyone was on one gigantic loop, doing the same thing again and again. And few had felt the distortion as keenly as Grace or Paige as she’d known herself then. She understood that..Time was wrong. She didn’t know how. But she had deja vu all the time! And when there were anomalies like Owen...It grated in her head! Because she was the same age. And so..She knew it couldn’t have been that long since they came and yet...With each year it felt longer and longer! And just..It wasn't right, as much as she was at loss to explain it, as much as she feared she was crazy, that perhaps it was her brain that was wrong and not the town!
And now here...Time...Everything seemed ridiculously slow! Seconds felt like eons. Step. Step. Heart pounding in her chest. Was this it?! Would she slip, would she fall and crack her skull, die before ever fully settling things with Papa, without ever apologizing?! She had to know how he felt about her now! Did he like the person she’d become?! A person could change a great deal in a few years and...For a while, she’d had no one to depend on with Papa gone. And..Maybe he hated the girl she’d grown into? And would he be upset if he knew she’d been a pirate for a time?! And what about the flute?! There were so many things she had to tell him! But she didn’t know where to start! Regret and despair threatened to consume her! It was the nightmare! It had really shaken her up along with whatever had caused her to come to the roof...some special magic maybe?!
Just..Focus on reaching Papa! It felt like forever but she was sure only a beat after she’d desperately squeezed his hand, he’d pulled her towards him in one swift motion. It felt like she was suspended in the air...Like gravity didn’t quite work. But at any moment it would be switched right back on and she’d be hurtling..free falling before she collided with the ground! Her heart raced as she visualized fall, heard the snap!
But it was all in her head. Eventually, Papa’s arms were wrapped tightly around her. She heard Papa’s sigh of relief and knew she was safe. Papa wouldn’t sigh like that if she was still in danger! She just..Had to calm down, had to try and convince her heart to stop attempting to beat its way clean out of her chest! It was alright now! Papa was here! She was safe in his arms!
She nodded her head when Papa asked if she could climb. It wasn’t that she was afraid of heights. She’d never had an issue climbing trees. She really enjoyed that actually But it was one thing to climb and know where your steps took you and another thing to be...Suddenly on the roof with no support! But Papa had her and now there was the ladder! She’d be fine! Just...Remember her girl scout training! Deep cleansing breaths and don’t lose your head in a crisis! And Remember what her captain had always told her! Pirates were adaptable! And she was one still even without a ship! Her captain was still her captain!
Grace gripped the ladder tightly as she suspected Papa would head down first. He’d be worried and want to catch her in case she slipped. So he’d move and she’d wait. But she wasn’t going to fall! She wasn’t going to cause Papa anymore trouble than she already had!
“I’ll be right behind you Papa!”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 22:50:57 GMT
She squeezed Papa tightly as he held her. This..It felt so good to be in his arms again. She’d almost forgotten what a papa hug felt like, it had been so long. But here he was, back here with her! It would...It would be okay now, wouldn’t it?
But she was a little scared. As happy as she was to be with him, she was worried he’d blame her. Well...Even if he didn’t blame her, she’d still blame herself. She was the one who pushed him to the edge, who made him feel he wasn’t enough. Those feelings had to come from somewhere, right?! She’d caused them! And she knew why! It was all because of that dreadful stuffed rabbit! She shouldn’t have gone anywhere near the toy cart! She had the stuffed animals Papa made her! That was plenty!
Was that why Papa had waited?! Was he still upset?! But no..He wasn’t now, right?! He was holding her like he always did!
“Am I too heavy, Papa?!” she asked nervously. Although time had been frozen in Storybrooke, that wasn’t the case in the Enchanted Forest. And he’d been gone for years. She was a good bit bigger now than she’d been the last time he picked her up.
When he told her he missed her, when he kissed the side of her head again, she couldn’t stop the tears that had been forming behind her eyes from bursting forth. It was just..Too much! Too much emotion! Too much feeling! Too much to process!
“I’ve missed you too, Papa! Always...Always I wanted to find you! Please know, I was looking for you this whole time!” Grace wasn’t sure how Papa would feel if he knew all of what she’d done, how she’d run away from the neighbors to look for him and that she’d even become a pirate for a while. She’d gotten into all sorts of trouble. But she couldn’t let things be! Papa was trying so hard to get back to her! She had to do the same! Once she realized where he was, she had to give her portal hunting quest everything she had and then some!
“Papa, as long as you want me, I’ll always find you! Always!”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 19:13:18 GMT
Grace loved Papa’s smile best of all. Her whole face lit up when Papa’s expression became animated at the mention of her surprise. Well..She hoped she wouldn’t disappoint him! It wasn’t really anything new! Well..The mushrooms themselves were new! But it was hardly the first time she’d picked some for him! She just wanted to do everything she could to help out! Papa worked so hard to take care of them! She had to do her best to support him too! The two of them were a team, them against the world! As long as they stood side by side, nothing would get in the way! Grace was never going to let anyone hurt Papa!
She didn’t know why she was so worried about that, of Papa getting hurt. People didn’t typically hold grudges against mushroom sellers. But...There were some strange things, the way they lived in the middle of nowhere and never went anywhere besides market and the way he tensed up every time there was a knock on the door. Grace had never seen anyone but the neighbors come over; and, he’d immediately relax if they were there to ask for something. But..every time...It was like he was hiding, like he was scared someone had found him. But maybe Grace was just being silly again, worrying about nothing!
Grace giggled as Papa kissed her cheek before setting her down, telling her how wonderful that was. She loved being close to Papa like this! Papa’s hugs and kisses were the best! She couldn’t imagine life without him! But then she wouldn’t need to! Because she wouldn’t let anything hurt Papa or come between them! It would always be the two of them against the world!
“Do I really, Papa?!” she squealed, eyes widening in pure delight in wonder when he told her she always picked the best mushrooms. She tried to! But she knew there was always room for improvement!
“You’d sell less mushrooms!” she teased him at his rhetorical question, not wishing to give it any more thought. It wouldn’t happen! Not ever!
At Papa’s warm smile she ran to collect her basket, eager to show him all the mushrooms she’d gathered. The basket was filled to the brim. It looked as though not one more mushroom could be stuffed inside it!
“Here, Papa!” she called out joyously, thrusting the basket in his face.
“A surprise?!” she exclaimed. “For me, Papa?! What is it?!” She couldn’t wait! Papa always had the best surprises!
He handed her a cloth that she quickly unwrapped. Her whole face lit up as the cloth fell away to reveal a stuffed mouse. She earnestly hugged it to her chest. “I love it Papa! Did you make it?!” She set it down so she could immediately express her appreciation for the gift by giving Papa another big, warm hug!
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 18:41:54 GMT
“Papa’s Jefferson Hatter!” she answered without hesitation. Grace was extremely proud of her papa. She felt fortunate to have him as her father and to share a last name! She just..Missed him so much!
“I wonder...Maybe Papa’s the reason why the Dark One was so nice to me.” It had to be a kindness that he’d given her the information and the mirror for a stuffed rabbit and a cloak, didn’t it? But then, they were her most prized possessions. Magic was tied to emotions. She knew that much. So many ordinary objects like that could become magical or something. She had no idea.
“As long as I can remember Papa was a mushroom seller. But before that he was a portal jumper. And I know he worked for Rumplestiltskin.” Although she’d been scared to ask what he did before, not wishing to see that look of pain flash across his face, now she knew that much at least. Talking about anything back when Mama was alive was difficult for Papa. And she didn’t want to hurt him. But once he was gone, she’d tried to figure out anything she could about his old connections. She’d hoped she’d find some old friend that could help her, maybe tell her where he was. And the Dark One had confirmed the rumors she’d heard. Papa had worked for Rumplestiltskin. And he had been a portal jumper. She still wasn’t sure exactly what his work entailed. But she did very much suspect thievery was involved because of how silently he moved and just how much he knew about rare things.
Originally the crew paused at their work, when they saw the little girl following along behind the captain, like a baby duck imprinting on its mother. But she just smiled warmly at each and every man, curtseying in introduction. She didn’t need to offer her name as the captain had already given it.
She beamed when the captain welcomed her aboard the Jolly Roger. Now this felt like the beginning of a proper adventure! “Thank you captain!”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 18:25:38 GMT
She laughed warmly when her captain told her he’d seen worse. “Of that I have no doubt!” she assured him. And yes, she still considered him her captain still. Technically it had been almost three decades, a long arduous 28 years since last they spoke. And...As Paige, she’d been different than most. She’d felt that time was wrong somehow as much as she worried she was losing her mind and couldn’t explain where the feeling came from. So...It had felt much more like 28 years to her than most. But all the same, she was of the opinion that once a pirate always a pirate. Hook had been her captain. Should centuries pass her by without the two of them ever so much as sharing a single word, he’d be her captain still.
Being a pirate...She’d like to think that it changed someone, permanently. Something in her blood and heart had shifted. She’d always been an explorer, adventurous. But her brief taste of piracy..It had awakened something in her. It was difficult to put it into words, all she’d gained from that short time she’d spent on the Jolly Roger. But..It was nice. After Papa left, besides her portal hunting quest, she’d had nothing. No family. No friends. No home. Nothing but the mirror that could only show her how miserable Papa was. But..The Jolly Roger had become something like a home for a spell and the crew, like her family. There was a closeness she’d never truly grasped, only hinted at imagined, a bond between a crew and their captain. It was precious, the bonds unbreakable at least in her mind. She could now truly understand why a crew would sacrifice themselves for their captain. It wasn’t just about glory and riches and reputation but protecting your family. Even now, Grace knew she would do anything to help her captain. The connection was different than the one she had with her father; but, the bindings were just as strong.
Yes, after she’d finished helping Dr. Whale, with the surgery, she’d been briefed. Well that really sounded too grand! She hadn’t been operating! But Dr. Whale was stressed and strapped for time! So it had helped that she was there to pass along the equipment he needed! The atmosphere was so intense it was palpable. But in the end, it was their victory! Well..Really Dr. Whale’s victory. But she’d played a small part! She felt honored she’d been entrusted to something so important!
In any case, she was aware that the reason her captain was restrained was because he’d shot Belle over the town line. She really wanted to ask him about that, inquire into his reasons. But she supposed there would be time for that later. She didn’t want to spoil their reunion. She really was glad to see him! And the main thing was that Belle was okay. And hopefully she could get her memories back soon!
More problematic than Belle was the patient Dr. Whale had operated on. Apparently the Dark One had made a fireball and...That guy had likely seen it which was very bad! But they wouldn’t know anything until he’d woken up. He was stable but still unconscious. So all they could do was wait. It was best to focus on her captain for the time being.
Grace chuckled at his teasing tone. Hook knew better than anyone that she was no ordinary child. That part hadn’t changed. “I work here!” she informed him. “I’m on the clock right now, Captain. But it seems to me that you could use a little help. So maybe...Just maybe..I’ll let my hospital duties slide,” she teased back. There was no maybe about it. He was her captain; and, Grace was helping him out of here! She knew if she didn’t, the moment they thought he was well enough to move, it was a jail cell for him! And she couldn’t allow that! Not for her captain!
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 17:59:26 GMT
Somehow Hook’s interest in her deal troubled her. She felt this was no ideal curiosity. He was invested although she couldn’t say why or how. But this was his ship; and, he had asked. And she didn’t think there was any harm in telling him. But still, this shift in interest made her uneasy as much as she hid it.
“I honestly don’t understand what he could have wanted with them,” she confessed. “They meant the world to me; but, they weren’t rare or powerful, not valuable in the least. I know the Dark One wouldn’t care for normal riches. He can spin straw into gold after all.” She’d heard that tale from Papa himself as well as others. And well..she supposed the items were rare in a sense. Papa had made them. They were the only ones in the entire world. But cloaks and stuffed animals...They were everywhere.
“Papa made me a stuffed rabbit and a cloak. I gave them up.” She’d yet to mention the mirror. She wasn’t sure she ever would. She was still scared that if Hook should learn about it, he’d take it from her by force, use it for his own purposes. Pirates were thieves after all. And in some sense, he would be entitled to it as payment since she'd smuggled herself aboard. But..He couldn’t have it! She’d never willingly part with her magic mirror!
Well at least she wasn’t lying not directly. It was a lie by omission. She just wasn’t telling the whole deal. She did like to avoid lies whenever possible. Although recently...Lies had sadly become a necessary part of her world. Children weren’t allowed to live by themselves.
After she apologized for a moment she would swear something resembling melancholy flashed through Hook’s eyes, as though he was remembering something painful. Did he know what it was like to lose his family? Did he share that pain? She didn’t know and certainly wasn’t going to ask! That would be rude! And she doubted he’d want to talk about it anymore than her! Well at least his gaze was a bit more gentle now. So hopefully she’d chosen her words well and smoothed things over!
He stood there quietly for several minutes, just watching her after she’d again offered her assistance, in a less combative way this time, as though mauling something over. Having reached some sort of decision, he told her to come on, tone much less harsh, without the briefest trace of mock or ridicule.
“I would appreciate stretching my legs a bit!” she admitted with a warm smile when he spoke of how someone like her shouldn’t be around the rum barrels. She had no interest in alcohol. She was too young for that sort of thing. Papa would worry! Although...Maybe all things considered, rum would be the least of his worries.
Grace beamed when he invited her up on deck! After sneaking in and concealing herself, she’d had no time to explore the wonder that was the Jolly Roger. She was very much looking forward to the experience! On light feet, she hurried behind him, shoes not making so much as the softest squeak
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 17:17:35 GMT
“The Dark One, Rumplestiltskin,” she answered simply at his question as to which sorcerer had helped her. Perhaps it had more been a mutual exchange than a matter of helping. But she wasn’t entirely convinced. What use could the Dark One possibly have for the things she’d traded away?! She’d loved them dearly to be sure and now missed them sorely. But they were sentimental items rather than anything valuable. As far as she knew, in and of themselves, they had no magical properties. There was love, care, and tenderness in every stitch to be sure! Papa had made that stuffed rabbit and the cloak just for her! They were symbols, representations of the tight bond between them. But that sort of significance shouldn’t extend to anyone besides the two of them. So she couldn’t help but wonder if the Dark One had been kind to her. But then, he knew a lot more about magic and just everything than her. Maybe somehow he could actually get use out of those things. She didn’t know.
She was surprised that Hook was interested in who had told her about Papa. Why should a pirate care what she, some stray child had done? There was clearly more to him than met the eye, more than his reputation spoke of. She supposed she’d figure it out bit by bit. Well she hoped she would anyways! She’d much rather poke and prod and chip away at his pirate mask than stroke like a mad girl trying to delay the inevitable in the sea! But it didn’t seem he’d be too quick to throw her overboard! Still, best not to press her luck! Be cordial! Be brave! Answer all questions asked!
Grace nodded her head. “That is always the case. But the fact that I know about the crew shows I’ve done more than just listen!” Once she’d made her decision to smuggle aboard one of the fiercest pirate ships in the land, she’d done her homework, figuring out its typical patterns, uncovering basic descriptions of each member of the crew. It had taken time; but, she’d gotten there. People were quick to write off the crew no matter how important they were. It was a shame the captains were the ones who hoarded all the renown and glory. They really would be nothing without their loyal crew. A captain couldn’t be all places at once and certainly couldn’t run a ship by himself!
The taunting chuckle made her wonder if she’d overstepped her bounds. It really wasn’t wise to provoke pirates. And truly, she should be grateful she was getting a ride; and, they wouldn’t cast her out right here and now.
The words didn’t sting like perhaps he’d meant them to. Grace liked to consider herself someone who knew her limitations, her shortcomings as well as her strengths. She whole heartedly believed in introspection, self reflection. And she knew that she could be a bit naive at least in terms of believing in people. She always wanted to assume the best. And...That had gotten her into trouble recently. She was trying to find that balance between trusting and being naive. She wasn’t sure she’d quite gotten there. So..Although likely not the way he’d intended, his comment was never-the-less fair.
But more naive than other children? She wasn’t sure that was so accurate. She'd been forced to grow up quickly ever since Papa disappeared. She’d run away from the neighbors some time ago to focus on her portal hunting quest. So..Hmm...What were typical children like? She wasn’t sure she even knew anymore. She supposed it didn’t matter. If she’d ever been one, that her was long gone.
Yes, he’d certainly lived longer than her. She didn’t doubt his words. She had no idea what he’d faced in the Enchanted Forest let alone Neverland. She nodded her head in firm agreement.
He said he had no use for a chile; but, she disagreed. But she was starting to get a sense as to why. Maybe, he was actually kinder than his reputation implied. Maybe this was her just being naive and wanting to believe in the best of people again; but, she got the feeling it wasn’t that he couldn’t use a child but didn’t want to. He was certainly clever and creative enough to assign her some meaningful task.
She simply stared back at him, refusing to comment. She knew voicing her thoughts would end poorly. Pirates didn’t like being told they were good people or had gentle hearts. Although she very much doubted his heart was gentle. But you could have a rough and ragged heart with soft spots. That was the sense she got from him. He cared about children. At least that’s what she wanted to believe.
Did she think quite highly of herself? No, she didn’t think that was right. She knew the separation was her fault. Papa suffered because of her selfish wish. She already had everything she needed and yet she’d dared to ask for more. It didn’t matter that she’d been stressed and anxious because of the queen’s visit, longing for any kind of distraction. It...It bothered her! Papa was typically so honest with Grace! He answered all of her questions! They were so close! But he refused to tell her just what had happened between him and the queen. And she knew...She knew he’d lied! The queen wouldn’t have come all the way to a mushroom seller’s house in the middle of nowhere personally unless she knew him! So yes...She’d wished for anything to take her mind off her worries. And there it had been, the poison apple, the toy cart with the cutest looking stuffed rabbit that was soft to the touch. She never should have picked it up, never rubbed her cheek against it, never wanted. Because of that one simple action, Papa grew insecure. He thought Grace couldn’t be happy with what she had. She was the one who’d ruined both their happy endings, taken all the good things away.
But that being said, she knew her research skills were nothing to scoff at, nor was her nimbleness, her quick reflexes. And as of late, she’d gotten pretty good at patching up minor injuries. It was necessary. Fortunately, she hadn’t needed to resort to thievery yet. Papa and her had been mushroom pickers! No one could find food in the wild like her! She could collect rather than take and sometimes trade her mushrooms for other food so she had more variety. That’s how she’d gotten the stale bread. The salesperson would rather give it to her for a few good mushrooms than throw it out.
“No, I expect you’re right,” she said calmly. “So teach me,” she said stubbornly. “Show me what a pirate requires.”
Now his next words...They stung a bit. Papa..He’d technically left her; but, it had been an accident! He hadn’t meant to! She hadn’t been abandoned, not really! So..Why?! Why had she heard that awful flute, the one that made her stomach sick?! Papa...Would he ever forgive her for that?! He’d been to Neverland. He knew about the flute! If he knew she heard it, would he cry?!
As for manners...Papa had taught her plenty! She tried to be a good girl! But..This was a unique position! She was dealing with pirates and did wish to pay back her debt! But goading hadn’t worked. And she did feel she had overstepped her bounds. Hopefully she could find some way to pay him back eventually. But rudeness was unnecessary. And she had been insolent.
Grace quickly curtsied. “Apologies, Captain. I am on your ship and in your custody. There is no excuse for addressing you like that.” She straightened up, once more meeting his gaze. “I only want to help. I don’t like being in others’ debt.” He’d probably understand that better than her not wanting to steal.
“If you change your mind or if there’s any way you’d like me to assist you on deck, I will do so!”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 14, 2015 15:56:45 GMT
The man in the mirror made flesh and blood was quiet for a while. She couldn’t call him a stranger. She knew he was; but, at the same time he wasn’t! She really felt like she knew him! Yes...That was stupid and silly. She knew that. But after spending so much time...Too much time if truth be told clutching the mirror confessing all the mysteries, questions, and feelings that plagued her...she just...She couldn’t see him as a stranger. There was something about him that was just so soothing and familiar. But that was only because of the mirror, her comfort object! She shouldn’t read too much into it! She’d just confuse herself! As it was..Things already didn’t make sense; and, she was scared she was losing her mind, going crazy!
Even as her mind raced, her pale sapphire orbs never strayed from the man’s face. This...She didn’t understand why but somehow...All of this seemed incredibly important; and, she didn’t want to miss a moment!
She cradled the mirror to her chest when he said it was his. Paige knew...She wasn’t a thief. She’d have to return it but..One of the many things that bothered her...For some reason every time she thought she wasn’t a thief...The phrase pirate popped into her head. She couldn’t understand why. That was never something she’d wanted to be. It wasn’t like she’d read many pirate books or was a Peter Pan nut. No...Her obsession was Alice in Wonderland. Although...That wasn’t quite right either. Interestingly enough, she was only really obsessed with one part of the story, the one that involved the Mad Hatter. Although she was loathe to call him mad and thought of him only as hatter. It just..It bothered her! She wasn’t sure why this should be the case when in the stories the hatter was clearly depicted as mad. But...To her, the Hatter had always seemed terribly sad. She thought being crazy was the only way he could cope.
In any case, when she was feeling particularly troubled and depressed, so miserable she wasn’t sure how she could keep on living like this, she read the chapter with the mad tea party out loud. She’d done that so often she had it memorized verbatim. And she did the same with the movie, playing the scene where Alice met him over and over again. The rest of the story...Of course she’d read and watched it so many times she likewise had it memorized. But it never clicked in the same way as the part with the Hatter. That was the portion of the story that comforted her, the one she was drawn to.
But she shouldn’t get into all that now! She was being rude! This man here...This was his mirror and...
“No,” she said slowly, shaking her head stubbornly. She wasn’t sure why she was so confident. She’d only just met this man. But he was lying. She supposed...She’d always been perceptive when it came to reading others. But here...She just knew he wasn’t saying the truth. Now..Why did she think that?! It was just another one of her inexplicable, irrational feelings wasn’t it, like with the name? There were so many of them! But...
“You’re lying,” she added with equal confidence. “I can see it in your eyes.” And to be fair, to give this strong feeling some semblance of credibility, he’d taken an awfully long time to reply. Surely, he wouldn’t have forgotten owning such a strange mirror, one that was fixed in place and didn’t reflect the surfaces of things. If it was really his, if he’d seen it before, he would have replied right away.
“It’s mine.” And that felt right and true. Everything about Storybrooke seemed so distorted, nonsensnsical, keeping her up late at night as disturbing questions went round and round in her head.
Everything in this town often seemed distorted! There was the clock that never worked for one thing! Well not until all of a sudden it had! For elven years the hands had never moved! And then one morning, Paige had heard the chime and looked out her window to see the impossible, the clock moving! What was wrong with her, fixating on such tiny little insignificant details?! So a clock had broken down. Yes, it was big and prominent. And sure it was odd that no one had ever bothered to fix it; but, that didn’t mean anything! The mayor was the one in charge of the town budget (the one everyone seemed scared witless of); and, she probably just hadn’t felt like spending the funds to repair it. Miss Mills most likely thought it was more prudent to devote the town’s money to education or construction. It wasn’t like people didn’t have their own personal watches and cell phones to let them know the time. But then...The construction....That was another odd thing! Paige couldn’t ever remember Storybrooke being anything but what it was now. No businesses shut down. No new ones opened up. Yes, they were a small town; but, wasn’t that weird?! And everyone was familiar. Paige couldn’t recall any strangers besides Miss Swan wandering into Storybrooke. It was just the same old faces day after day.
Really...She had to be losing it, over thinking things to obsessive degrees. Miss Swan was proof that new people could cross the town border just fine! Most people probably just didn’t bother with what they would consider a boring town. And now...Wasn’t there another guy who’d come too, a Mr. Booth? See! She was being silly! She really needed to stop giving credence to her peculiar feelings, her terrible notions of wrongness. But still...They were only really recent editions to the town! Before then....there’d been no one! In 11 years not a single tourist had stopped in Storybrooke?! No one had just passed through to get somewhere else? No one had gotten lost and needed gas?! Wasn’t that strange?! It was like Storybrooke was completely disconnected from the rest of the world! No! That there was crazy talk! The lack of tourists and outsiders was odd yes but ...It didn’t mean anything! But come to think of it....There was someone or rather two someones a long while back who passed through Storybrooke wasn’t there? They hadn’t stayed in town very long but....It was hazy, hard to recall like so many things. It drove her mad!
She wasn’t in a downward spiral of depression; but, now that she was trying to piece together all the things that bothered her but...Then the man pointed out something troubling with his question.
“I don’t know!” Her voice was strained and too high pitched! But she just didn’t! As much as she knew the mirror was hers, that it had been hers for a very long time and no one else’s...It was like it had always been there! She couldn’t remember how she’d gotten it or when she first held it..It was just always there.
She was shaking slightly now. “That’s not the only thing I don’t remember! There are all these gaps..” She clutched her head as though pressing it like this could somehow jar the nonexistent memories into being. But it wouldn’t be so simple. She knew that. It had never worked before.
“I don’t remember how I met anyone in this town! It’s so hazy! I mean..I’ve lived here all my life I guess..You could say of course I wouldn’t remember! But..I don’t remember how I even became friends with my friends! I was older then! That I should know! And...I know this will sound crazy but..I don’t ever remember having anyone besides Miss Blanchard as a teacher! But I should! She can’t have been my only teacher! But the more I try to think about it the more it slips away until there’s just nothing and all there’s ever been is me in her class the same class over and over again!” Her voice was near hysterical now.
“And no one else notices! No one else ever thinks it’s strange that they can’t remember meetings or basic things! But I know they don’t!” She’d asked! Paige supposed she’d been a fool. Why did she keep trying, hoping against hope that someone else would notice at least some of the strange phenomenon? Even her hypothetical questions had gotten her strange stares. The topics were only laid to rest because she was that quirky little girl, obsessed with Alice in Wonderland. For someone who read and loved such strange tales, it was considered acceptable for them to pop the occasional really odd and worrisome question.
But why was she being so sincere with this person?! She couldn’t be honest with anyone like this!
She had people she talked to; and, she called them friends; but, honestly, they were more like friendly acquaintances than anything. She couldn’t confide in them, couldn’t tell them anything of significance. The Paige she showed them was a mask, a farce. The Paige they thought they knew so well didn’t actually exist. She projected this cheerful little girl, excited by all the world had to offer. She was sweet. She was kind; but, most of all, she was happy. She had dreams and ambitions and was ready to conquer the world. Paige supposed she could be considered kind and sweet. She tried to be. And she did want to be a doctor. But everything else was a lie. She was miserable and depressed and often felt that she belonged in Storybrooke as much as the boy Owen who stayed so briefly, meaning not at all. (Yes! That was his name! Owen Flynn! The little boy! He'd come..It felt so long ago...But it couldn't be...It..Time just felt so wrong here! She couldn't explain it, couldn't make sense of it; but, she felt it so strongly! Time was distorted!) She couldn’t be honest. They didn’t understand her questions or her pain. So all she could do was talk about fair weather topics, little things that didn’t matter like merit badges and such.
And her parents...No, she certainly couldn’t be honest with them! She was terrified of worrying them when they did so much for her! And...What if they really would think she needed anti-depressants or therapy?! She was a minor! They could force her! What..What if she really ended up like those poor pitiful souls down in the psyche ward?! No! She didn’t want that!
And yet..Here she was opening up at least a little bit to this near stranger. Was it because she thought he couldn’t get her in trouble? She’d never seen him talking to anyone in town. What she shared would likely stay between them. And even if he should blab, she could lie, pretend she’d never said any of those things. But it was more than this and she knew it. For some reason, she felt like she really could trust him. This was ridiculous! This was crazy! She only felt that way because of the familiar form, because he was her comfort object made flesh and blood! But no...Some part of her screamed that wasn’t the case that there was something about the real him that was just..She didn’t even know what! But she wanted to believe in him, trust him. She needed to be honest with someone, think things out loud or she really would lose her mind!
And his eyes, how tender they'd seemed, how full of care. Her instincts were shrieking that he was important and...Her eyes told her that for whatever reason she was important to him. The way he’d stared at her when he first answered the door, had that...had that been love in his eyes?! Of course not! That was crazy talk again! She didn’t know him! He didn’t know her! All of this was insane!
She just wanted to curl up in a ball and cry when he took it back, denying that she was Grace. She felt like he’d snatched some portion of her heart back with his words. Grace..As mental as it had sounded..The name had made sense so much more so than Paige! It was madness..But it had felt so right the way it slipped smoothly and seamlessly off her tongue, hers!
So..She’d reminded him of someone he used to know? That...That actually made sense. That explained the love and care she’d seen in his eyes. Of course it wouldn’t be directed at her! Why should it be?!
She didn’t know why but...That comment was enough to shatter whatever limited composure she clung to. A single tear rolled down her cheek. He knew someone else..Not her.
“I’m sorry,” she said weakly. She was making such a mess of things! She quickly brushed away the single tear. She had company! She couldn’t be like this.
“I’m...” She hesitated. She hated the name! Today was one of those days she really hated it! “I’m Paige,” she choked out.
“Maybe you’ll think I’m mental but some days...I just get sick to death of people calling me Paige! I should like the name. It sounds pretty enough. And even though it’s spelled differently it sounds like the page in a book. I love reading! But all the time I just feel...It’s wrong somehow, like it shouldn’t be my name! And I can’t stand to hear people use it anymore! I don’t tell them. I smile like always. I just go to my room when I can and lock the door and throw a pillow over my face so no one can hear me cry. And then I’ll think about all these things that don’t make sense like my own name.” Too much information! What was she doing?! What was she saying?! But she’d already leapt down the rabbit hole so to speak. She couldn’t go back. There was no saving this. So why not keep going?
She hugged the mirror more tightly to her chest. “I don’t want to be Paige! I want to be Grace! That name makes so much more sense, sounds so much better!” Yes...He’d think she’d completely lost her marbles. Well..Maybe that was fair. Surely it wasn't the town that was wrong, it was her, her own brain that was dysfunctional, distorted.
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 13, 2015 21:10:40 GMT
Grace felt extremely lucky to be a hospital worker. Well..technically she was a volunteer. No money for her. But she liked to feel she got paid in experience! She might be young; but, she knew she wanted to be a doctor one day! She wanted to help those in trouble, save lives! Yes, she’d love to have a more adventurous aspect to it, be a hero! But doctors were always needed regardless! She could be a hero like Henry and still have some medical skills to patch up those who got hurt! She blushed slightly at the thought of Henry. Even as Paige, she’d had a crush on him. And as Grace, she was liking him more and more all the time. But now wasn’t the time for such thoughts! She was on the clock! Well..it was a late clock for sure. She was a bit surprised the staff had been willing to schedule her so late at night. But that only meant they’d trusted her, that she’d proven herself! But yes, age meant little. It was what you did with those years that mattered. And Grace was one determined little girl! She was young; but, she was hell bent on learning everything she could about medicine! Already she’d been certified in CPR; and, she was learning a ton working here! No, for the most part she wasn’t actually allowed to touch the patients. But she could watch most procedures. She knew the medical supplies and could hand them to Dr. Whale, bandages and the like. She supposed they didn’t scoff at a child’s help because the hospital was so understaffed. And well Dr. Whale wasn’t conventional to begin with. He approved of Grace’s enthusiasm and work ethic and found her useful. So here she was! She’d already taken care of her homework which was a good thing. She figured she’d be exhausted by the time she was released. But she’ never in one million years think of leaving early! She took her work very seriously! She’d been more busy tonight than expected. There were three new patients. She hadn’t been given all the details right away since there was a lot of prep work. She’d been running all over the place helping to prepare things. But now things had settled down. Finally she was given a proper briefing before being placed on a very intriguing new assignment. Grace wasn’t supposed to engage the man she was ‘guarding’. She was merely supposed to call for help if there was an issue. But for once...She wasn’t content to comply with hospital regulations. Against orders, she slipped inside, a smirk playing across her lips. “Well, you’ve seen better days, Captain!”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 13, 2015 20:46:56 GMT
At Hook’s amused smile, Grace figured he already knew everything she’d told him. She wasn’t all that surprised. Pirates did tend to know more about rare objects. After all, they could fetch a hefty price. And this particular pirate had been around for centuries. And if he’d truly been to Neverland, he must have found at least one portal on his own, likely a bean as that was the first portal he’d described to her. Well..Technically he didn’t have to be the one who found it. But he’d gotten a hold of it anyways. She nodded her head in agreement when he pointed out that beans as rare as they were, were still easier to come by than mirrors and hats. Oh if only he knew! Before Papa left, she’d had access to such a hat, everyday! And yes...Papa didn’t want her to use it...But she had been a curious little thing like she still was so.....once or twice...But in any case, she couldn’t get to it now! But yes, mirrors and hats and portals like that were typically guarded by powerful sorcerers who would very much like to keep them for themselves for whatever reason. She certainly wouldn’t dream of invading the queen’s castle. Would she really have any better luck in another land? Well it was worth a try! She wasn’t suicidal after all! There was a fine line between willing to die and a death wish! She did want to get to Papa in one piece! If she was dead it was all for nothing! So she’d exhaust every last option before resorting to either asking for or stealing Papa’s hat. “Technically, there’s one portal here,” she confessed. And as she’d been inside the castle to speak with the queen, she could even hazard a guess as to where it was located. “But getting to it the way I am now is out of the question. So I have to try somewhere else.” The queen had armed guards everywhere and was a ridiculously powerful sorcerer in her own right, the way Grace heard it. Hook could tease all he liked; but, this wasn’t some half hearted task she’d taken up yesterday. She’d searched absolutely everywhere, including the more shady places. She’d spoken with and eavesdropped on all manner of disreputable people, the types most likely to know. She’d...gotten into trouble more than once. Fortunately she was nimble and crafty and had come to know the streets and alleyways very well. She’d put her speed and ability to hide herself, squeeze into tight spaces to good use. She’d always made it out alright although sometimes with a few scrapes and bruises to show for it. So she was very confident that besides Papa’s hat there was nothing in this kingdom. She’d devoted much time and effort to reaching what she considered to be that sound conclusion. She knew her capabilities, her limitations even if Hook didn’t. She wouldn’t let him rattle her. “I’m sure,” she said boldly. Her tone wasn’t arrogant but self assured. She knew she was right; and, she didn’t care what Hook thought. Grace simply smirked when Hook warned her she’d encounter all sorts of unsavory characters. “I’m well aware.” Look who she was talking to after all. Yes, Hook had quite the reputation but it wasn’t that of a noble person. Again she nodded her head in agreement. “If you made me walk the plank, it would only be a matter of time.” She’d like to value herself a good swimmer; but, that only went so far with currents like these. She’d have to be exceptionally lucky to survive. Some other ship would need to stumble across her quite quickly. And as he pointed out, that was saying nothing of the nefarious sea creatures who might find Grace a delectable little meal. She was small, true. But she’d wager she’d make a decent enough snack for something hungry. She’d just be soup more than chicken, an appetizer as opposed to something more substantial, a place holder. “I’m certain he’s there. I spoke with a sorcerer; and, he did more than offer words.” Grace was the sort of person who liked to verify the facts. She wanted to believe in the best of people; but, for something so important, she needed something more. She had to know that he wasn’t trying to comfort her, saying that Papa was alive rather than dead. She’d been very afraid of that. She knew almost nothing could keep Papa from her. What if he hadn’t survived the queen’s assignment?! Grace would mention the mirror as her evidence; but, she’d be a fool to admit she had something rare and magical like that. Hook might want it for his own purposes. Grace used the mirror to check up on her papa. But the mirror could show the holder anyone they knew. No doubt pirates would find such a thing useful. She could easily see them taking it from her by force. Fortunately, unless someone tapped into its powers, it looked like any ordinary mirror. So should they search her most tiny bag, all they’d see was a typical mirror packed alongside some stale bread and a canteen of water and the stuffed tortoise Papa had made for her. Her favorite...the rabbit, she’d traded it away for information. But at least she still had the tortoise. “Your reputation is impressive,” she acknowledged. “But that of your crew..not so much.” She smiled apologetically at Mr. Smee. Hearing news of the infamous Captain Hook was simple. People liked to talk about him. But almost no one knew the names of the members of his crew. They weren’t considered important or significant. Cruel, she knew. A captain wasn’t truly a captain without a loyal crew to command and support him. But those men were forever lost to obscurity in the stories. No, she’d worked for all their names. Grace grew apprehensive when he said she couldn’t give him anything he required. But she hid it well. Show no fear! She continued to lock eyes and hold herself tall. No matter how scared she was, she wouldn’t show it! She thought it was best to choose her next words carefully. They might very well determine her fate. So she was quiet and let Hook speak. Grace was relieved when he said there was no need to throw her over board immediately. But she betrayed no sign of it. To show relief would be to imply she’d been afraid. She continued to hold the same confident, willful, and determined expression. She wouldn’t show him her true heart, not until she could determine what sort of man he was! In over her head? Perhaps she was. But then she’d been that way ever since that awful day when Papa had left. Everyday, it was like she was on the verge of drowning, stroking furiously just to stay afloat. She had nothing to show for her effort besides the fact that here she stood, living, breathing, and functioning however broken, however desperate and depressed. But that was alright. Because she was a girl on a mission! And she wouldn’t stop until either she succeeded or she died! Nothing was too risky! Nothing was too dangerous! Nothing was too much! There was only too little! “I thought a pirate would be more open minded than that,” she goaded him. Yes, it wasn’t exactly wise to provoke a pirate; but, Grace didn’t like stealing! And in a sense, that’s what she’d done by sneaking aboard, not paying her way. Since they found her and were willing to give her a lift or at least not throw her into the sea, she would like to pay her debt somehow. It was important to her! Yes, she’d needed to be..more sketchy recently. But she still had a code of honor! “You’re honestly telling me the clever and ingenuitive Captain Hook can find no way to use a child? I can handle more than you think. And I can do things neither you nor your crew can precisely because I’m a child.” She leaned in close, offering Hook a rare devilish smile. “You see, us children are all but invisible to most adults. And they’re far more willing to trust us or at the least find us non threatening. Look at how quickly you wrote me off.”She shook her head with a prolonged sigh, expressing her disappointment. “And here I thought the famous Captain Hook would be different. But I suppose you can’t envision the possibilities better than any of the rest of them. So all that creativity was just talk after all.”Grace straightened up. “But I suppose it’s no skin off my nose. If you’d rather give me a free ride than try to get your money's worth out of me, that’s your business.”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 13, 2015 5:49:29 GMT
Yes, Grace knew that she didn’t have any choice as to where the crew went. She wasn’t so deluded. But she’d wanted to make it clear that she’d never presume to ask them to change course. All she wanted was to be somewhere else. And the Jolly Roger could grant that wish. By itself it couldn’t take her to new worlds. But it could travel to new lands like Arendelle or Agrabah or...Anywhere in this world. Well anywhere you could get to by boat. This ship had weathered some of the fiercest storms if stories were to be believed. Grace didn’t care one way or the other where she went next. She'd exhausted every last resource here. She was confident there were no portals besides Papa’s hat in this kingdom. And Papa’s hat was unobtainable. So she had to go somewhere else. Where didn’t matter. She’d have to conduct research and investigations to determine if the next place had what she sought. All she could do now was gather information and look. “Beans aren’t the only portals. Portals can take many forms. There are mirrors and even hats,” she enlightened him. Her tone wasn’t patronizing but calm and collected, informative, a tone one might use when giving a presentation not to show off but to educate. She simply wished to make it apparent that this wasn’t some whimsical quest. She was taking it very seriously. She’d put a lot of hard work into this so far, a great deal of time and effort. There were many sleepless nights and dreary mornings. Grace was determined! Even as her hope was prone to fade and slip after countless failures after so much time staring into the mirror knowing how much Papa was suffering..Even still she refused to give up! She couldn’t! She understood that the world wouldn’t be handed to her on a silver platter. If she didn’t fight for her reunion, who would? The neighbors weren’t willing to get involved. It was up to her and Papa! Even if they were no longer connected...She wouldn’t let him do this alone! She had to do her part too! And she would! She’d fight forever if she had to, until her very last breath! Papa was worth it, all the time and effort and even the tears! Papa was worth everything! No one was more important in Grace’s world! She nodded her head in understanding when he explained they were quite rare. She knew that all too well. “That’s why I came here. There are no portals in this land. I need to look somewhere else.”Grace shook her head when the pirate asserted she had expectations. “No, I don’t expect anything from you,” she repeated. “But as you’ve discovered me, what can I do but negotiate? I understand I’m at your mercy; and, you’re free to throw my overboard. I can swim; but, that wouldn’t save me, not here. I’m too far from land.” No...Eventually she’d tire herself out. When she was too weak to stroke..Perhaps she’s sink. She knew how to float. But even if she floated on her back she’d likely starve to death before anyone found her. No, she'd be a bloated corpse by the time someone passed her by. Her words had been serene. Yes, she was still terrified. Pirates weren’t exactly known for their kind hearts. Being a child was no guarantee of safety. Young or old, male or female...Some people simply didn’t care. And everyone knew pirates hated stowaways. “I’m not expecting anything; but, I am hoping that you’ll listen.” Hopes and expectations were entirely different things. At least so far, things seemed to be going well. He’d been decently polite, never trying to interrupt her. He hadn’t tuned her out or written her off as some silly little girl. So hopefully he was open to the idea of exchanging services. She could be useful! Grace was a little surprised he cared about her reasons. But he’d asked so she would answer. It wasn’t wise to try and avoid a pirate’s question, not when you were corned on their ship at least. “Someone important was trapped there. I want to get back to my papa,” she replied, voice stoic even as she felt like crying. Her eyes betrayed little trace of her intense feelings. They didn’t moisten or water. She was in deal making territory. Strong emotions had no place here. She must be level headed, resolute. “Pirates are opportunists, are they not?” she asked, already knowing the answer. “I might be a child; but, you shouldn’t underestimate me,” she said boldly. Grace might not be a fighter; but, she did have confidence in certain skills, skills they could put to good use. She could smile at the thought. Good obviously not meaning moral in this context. “My desperation makes me strong not weak. There’s one thing I want to do, get to Wonderland. And to see that done, I’ll do anything.” Her tone was fierce as her eyes blazed with her unwavering determination. “I take it you’re a clever man, Captain Hook. I smuggled my way aboard with none the wiser. I knew both yours and Mr. Smee’s name without an introduction. I’m sure you can guess what that means. Don’t be so quick to write me off as useless or a liability.”When she confirmed that she’d run away, Hook raised an eyebrow. She could guess why. He was a bit surprised that she’d left something supposedly safe. But what she’d had with the neighbors, that wasn’t a home. Home was where Papa was. And if the neighbors couldn’t accept what Grace needed to do, couldn’t understand it, then she had no place there. Nothing was more important than getting back to Papa! She wouldn’t sit idly by while he worked so hard! She would give this portal hunting mission everything she had! “I’m willing to die for what I want.” She understood she’d taken that risk sneaking onto the Jolly Roger. And this was hardly the first time she’d done something dangerous. Acquiring information wasn’t always safe, not the type she wanted. “Someone willing to die is strong. You can use me,” she assured him. “I won’t complain, won’t falter even if it’s risky because death can’t hurt as much as this. And like I said, I’m willing to do anything to get what I want.”
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 11, 2015 20:49:37 GMT
Grace continued to smile, eyes locked on Hook’s. She wouldn’t break connection, wouldn’t show fear! And as far as she could discern, things were going well. His question was fair. No his tone wasn’t particularly friendly; but, at least it wasn’t hostile. And he was speaking to her as if not an equal at least an adult, not some silly little girl who was in over her head. Although depending upon what he wanted from her, she might very well be in over her head. But that would have nothing to do with her age. That was more along the lines of she was homeless and penniless at the moment and at the mercy of a fierce pirate. She had her skills true. But right now they hardly included sword fighting. She’d never so much as lifted a sword. No in this position when she was trapped on a ship, their ship, they had every advantage. She could hide; but, she couldn’t run not on a vessel in the middle of the sea. There was nowhere to go. Eventually they’d catch her. She was confident in her ability to keep them at bay for a while. But in the end it would be their victory not hers. “I have no intention of disrupting your travel plans. I’ll go wherever you’re headed,” she said smoothly, direct and to the point. Pirates were fond of quick answers as far as she could tell. If he didn’t ask for details, she wasn’t going to divulge them. It was best to speak when spoken to until she had a better sense of the man’s character. Be cautious. Stay on guard! But always be polite and courteous! And most importantly...Show no fear! “I’m looking for a portal but not just any one will do. I need one that can take me to Wonderland,” she explained. Hopefully these pirates would have no interest in such a thing. If they did, she’d have a problem. “I don’t expect anything from you,” she said fiercely, amber orbs boring into his sapphire pools. Her tone was not bitter but simply determined, willful. The neighbors wouldn’t help her; and, Papa the only family she had in all the world was gone. No, she knew the only person she could rely on right now was herself. She’d been fortunate to have someone to look after her for so long but now, it was just her. Until Papa and her were reunited...Sadly...It wasn’t the two of them against the world. Each one of them had to be against their own world. Grace could only hope that time and distance wouldn’t destroy their special bond, that somehow even across realms their hearts were connected. But...As the days bled together...She didn’t know. She couldn’t help but worry that time had shattered that precious connection. And...There was something that really bothered her. There was a special flute...Only children who felt abandoned or unwanted were supposed to hear its melody. To everyone else...There was nothing. But she’d heard it that night, been drawn to it. Her feet had moved on their own and then..She was lucky she was a girl. Otherwise she would have disappeared like all the rest. But Peter Pan didn’t want girls. Even among outcasts...She was an outcast. But...Why?! Why could she hear it?! It felt like the most vile betrayal to Papa! She hadn’t been abandoned! She wasn’t unwanted! It was all a horrible accident! And she’d find him again! She would! Nothing would keep them apart! She just..Had to work harder, hang in there a bit longer! “Perhaps meddling with pirates isn’t anyone’s first choice. It certainly wasn’t mine. But I’m desperate.” Despite the intensity the words implied, her tone was calm. It was best to be collected, in control when negotiating with pirates which was what she considered this little exchange, a negotiation. She was after all trying to trade a service for a service. She simply didn’t know what they would ask of her yet. But yes...She was desperate. She’d do absolutely anything to get Papa back. There was no point in hiding it. She wouldn’t have smuggled herself aboard one of the most terrifying pirate ships if she wasn’t desperate. It was better to openly acknowledge her state rather than have them force it out of her. Wield it like a weapon. Pirates should understand that desperate people were dangerous. Desperation could be a weakness; but, it could also be a strength, give someone that extra push they needed to accomplish something crucial. Grace would own up to her intense feeling and make it a strength! Nothing would stand in her way! She was getting Papa back! Grace didn’t particularly want to get into how she’d run away. But yes...She had. She’d left the neighbors. They didn’t think Papa was ever coming back. They wouldn’t help her search. They thought she should just stay with them forever. They’d given up on him! She couldn’t! So she’d left to do what she could on her own. “Yes, I have,” she said simply. How..How could he know that? Well...She supposed most children weren’t stowaways. But couldn’t she have pulled this stunt out of some sense of adventure?! Could he really tell just by looking at her?! Was her smile unconvincing?! But how?! She’d worked so hard to mask her emotions! Even her eyes shouldn’t betray her like this! But yes...The eyes were always the hardest to conceal. She supposed...a perceptive person could notice, see the loss within. And if the rumors were to be believed, Hook had centuries of experience.
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 10, 2015 19:32:05 GMT
Sneaking onto the Jolly Roger hadn’t been all that complicated. Perhaps it was because Grace was adept at moving slightly. Perhaps her small size aided her. And the lighting was never ideal at night which also helped. But part of it was her information network. Well...That sounded too grand didn’t it? It wasn’t like she had all these connections or anything. But children were often overlooked. People would speak as though they couldn’t hear or wouldn’t understand. And a sweet smile went a long way. So long as you didn’t ask things children obviously shouldn’t, people were more willing to indulge your whims. Although for Grace it wasn’t a whim. She was on a serious mission here, portal hunting for Papa! Grace had learned the Jolly Roger’s patterns. Not like they were being particularly discreet about them. They stayed in the same types of taverns. And the ship was pretty much unguarded at night. They left maybe one stray person behind to stand watch. It shifted depending upon the night. But the rest of the crew were...otherwise occupied. (Sometimes even those supposed to be standing guard were otherwise distracted. Although she hadn't been so lucky.) She knew that night was the time to strike and that they’d likely be setting sail first thing in the morning. She wasn’t exactly sure where they were headed. That part they were much more secretive about, likely because it involved their work. Or maybe they themselves hadn’t figured out where they were going. But in any case...It wasn’t here. The ship would take Grace somewhere else where she could look for portals. Some people might wonder why exactly Grace had chosen to infiltrate the Jolly Roger of all ships. Captain Hook and Captain Blackbeard had the fiercest reputations as far as pirates went. But that was exactly why Grace had chosen this ship. Captain Hook’s crew was clever, capable, and resourceful. Odds were good, they could get her somewhere in one piece so long as she wasn’t discovered ahead of time. And besides that, pirates were best for what she wanted. Most people didn’t know the first thing about portals or magical artifacts like that. Grace knew a bit about portals thanks to Papa. If Papa’s hat hadn’t been taken...She could use it to get to him. But Papa had brought it with him for the queen’s assignment. And Grace knew thanks to the sorcerer that the queen had it still. She wasn’t insane enough to try and steal something from the queen! No, she knew she wasn’t that good! Although she wasn’t entirely certain it would count as stealing since it belonged to Papa and not the queen. But the point was the queen would consider her a thief! If she was caught...She’d be in BIG trouble! And asking the queen nicely for it was out of the question. Grace had spoken with the queen about a week after Papa's disappearance. She'd been stunned the queen was actually willing to see her. But the woman hadn't been honest. She'd only said that yes, she'd sent Papa on an assignment but didn't know what had become of him. If she went back, even assuming the queen would see her again, she'd be upset that Grace was asking for the hat. It would mean that Grace didn't believe her. She didn't blame the queen for what happened to Papa. How could she?! The queen had lost her own father. And when Grace had met her, the woman had seemed so sad and lonely in her eyes. She'd wanted very much to make her smile, to make her happy. And family was really important! Besides, the queen's father was much older than Papa! It would be awful if he died in a faraway land with no family to comfort him. Being younger, Papa had more time to make it back! No..If anyone was to blame it was her. She'd asked for something she should have known was too expensive. (Although she'd never dreamed it would cost as much as one silver!) And...This really wasn't helping anything! She was depressed enough today. There was no reason to repeat that awful day, the worst day in her life, recall all those things she'd done wrong. Focus on her portal hunting quest! Papa’s hat was unique though, different from most portals. You typically only got one use per portal. You’d throw something like a bean and then it disappeared forever when you go to some new world. There were mirrors that worked much the same way. But...Grace hadn’t found any of them! That was another reason she’d smuggled herself onto one of the best pirate ships in all the land. If anyone was likely to know about portals, it was a pirate. To be a good thief, information was your bread and butter. (That was another reason Grace had always wondered if perhaps once Papa had been a thief. He really seemed to know a great deal about many rare, hard to come by things.) So it was possible they’d heard something about a portal or even had one. And while Grace hid away on their ship...She might overhear something important! Grace’s tears had dried by the time she heard someone head down into the cellars. She held her breath and tried her best to keep still. With a little luck the person would pass straight by her. She was well hidden behind the barrel. So long as the barrel wasn’t moved... Of course fate wasn’t so kind. Soon she was staring up at a man with a funny little red hat. It wasn’t anywhere near as nice as the ones Papa had. But it was still pleasant enough. More importantly, she knew who the hat belong to, a certain Mr. Smee. Yes, she’d done her research. She’d tried to learn as much as possible about the Jolly Roger and its crew before smuggling herself aboard. Rather than address her, Mr. Smee screamed for the captain. Grace’s heart sunk. She’d been hoping she’d have a little more time before the captain was called for so she could potentially think up a plan. Running was pointless. Mr. Smee had seen her. Maybe she could hide somewhere else for a little while; but, the crew knew every inch of this ship. Even assuming she continuously moved around, if they wanted to find her they would. She knew from her research that the captain very much valued the Jolly Roger. It was more than just a ship. So there was simply no way to avoid detection now that the crew had been made aware of her presence. That being the case, it was best to face the captain boldly. She was terrified because she knew pirates were rarely fond of stowaways. But if it was between finding her now or cornering her later...She figured the captain would be in a much better mood if she didn’t force his crew to suffer a long search. Perhaps she was being conceited; but, she did believe it would take them some time to find her. Papa always felt she was exceptionally good at hide and seek. And her small size would be an asset as she could squeeze into tiny spaces most of the crew couldn’t. The “What the bloody hell is wrong?” did nothing to settle her nerves as the captain descended the stairs. But she kept all her fears locked inside, smiling sweetly up at Mr. Smee, the man who’d found her. And then here he was, the infamous Captain Hook. The way she heard it, he was much older than he looked. Apparently he and his crew had spent a number of years in Neverland, centuries if the stories were to be believed. But now certainly wasn’t the time to get into all that! Now..If she had funds now would be the ideal time to offer them. But..Papa and her had been poor; and, the neighbors weren’t any better off financially. With her quick reflexes and her ability to move silently, she probably could have stolen something. But...She felt bad enough about smuggling herself aboard someone else’s ship. And she’d only done it because it was absolutely necessary! There were no portals here. She was sure of it! So she had to widen her search! So yes...She couldn’t offer money in exchange for a ride. Even as Grace assessed the situation, calmly reasoning out her best move, her heart was beating like mad. She was..simply put very frightened. She had absolutely no idea what the captain intended on doing with her. But her face was as complacent as ever. By now, she was all too good at hiding her feelings. What she did know was when dealing with pirates, it was best not to reveal even the briefest trace of fear. They’d take advantage, poke and prod until you were nothing but a shivering bundle of nerves. So she stood tall and proud, looking up to meet the captain’s gaze. Stare him in the eyes! Do not break connection! Show no fear! But being bold didn’t mean you couldn’t be civil. Grace smiled warmly up at Hook before curtseying. “Hello Captain Hook! It’s a pleasure to make your acquaintance! And you as well Mr. Smee!” she said kindly, nodding in his direction as well. “My name is Grace Hatter!” she added brightly. She knew their names; and, they might find it rude if she kept her own to herself. Besides, she liked giving it. Her name was one of the few connections she had left with Papa. The two of them shared a last name. And he and Mama had picked her first name together. “I am terribly sorry about stowing away like this!” Accept responsibility. It might earn her a shred of goodwill. She couldn’t deny that she’d sneaked her way in here anyways. “I need to go somewhere else to look for something important, you see. But I don’t have the funds to pay you. Perhaps it would be possible to exchange services for a ride.” That was really all she had to offer. She hoped it would be enough. At least Captain Hook did seem the type to look past appearances. He’d accepted Mr. Smee as part of his crew after all. Most would just write Grace off as a child, assuming there was nothing useful she could do. Hopefully, Captain Hook would be different and actually consider what she had to offer. “Children can be pirates too,” she said smoothly. Not all children were as fortunate as Grace, to have been raised in a loving home. She knew there were children who did all sorts of things to survive. Age alone told you almost nothing. Surely a captain who had lived for centuries would realize this. She could help him!
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Post by Grace Hatter on Mar 10, 2015 0:35:00 GMT
Grace wasn’t sure how Papa would feel if he knew what she was up to. On the one hand, she suspected he’d be a little proud of just how much she’d learned. It always amazed Grace just how silently Papa could move. She always thought he would make an excellent thief. Or maybe it was the other way around. Maybe he was so good at sneaking around because he’d been a thief before he’d ever been a mushroom seller. Grace knew that he hadn’t always been one. She couldn’t remember a time before. But the neighbors said it wasn’t always so. But they didn’t know what he’d done. Grace was of course curious; but, Papa had a hard time talking about things before Mama’s death. She didn’t want to make him feel bad by asking difficult questions. So Papa’s past for the most part remained a secret. She knew that if she really wanted to know, if she asked Papa would always answer. Papa never lied, not to her! But...She couldn’t take that pain that flashed across his face when she asked about Mama or..anything before it was the two of them against the world. Papa would surely be impressed with just how much Grace had improved. She was always watching him. And so she’d learned to move the way he did, silently. Sneaking was all but second nature by now. And recently..Well she’d had reason to hone the skill. She wasn’t exactly proud of what she was about to do but..It was necessary! She hadn’t found a single portal in this area. She had to start looking somewhere else! Papa...Every day he looked worse and worse in the mirror! He hadn’t given up. He continued to make the hats like...Well...She didn’t at all care for that gleam in his eyes or the obsessive behavior. But she wouldn't think it! She wouldn't think he worked like a man possessed, like someone...possibly deranged, unstable. Papa...Papa was unwell! He was hurting! And Grace couldn’t even call out to him, tell her she was there, that she saw; and, she believed in him! It hurt! It really hurt! Papa had lost confidence because of her selfish wish! And now he was trapped in another land! But Grace would find him! This was just like one of their games, hide and seek! Only the rules were slightly different. She knew where he was. She just had to find a way to get to him! But in the end she’d call out, “Papa, I found you"! He’d come running to her like he always he did, scoop her up in his arms and hold her close! It would be... She was shaking a little, hiding below decks, waiting for the ship to set sail. How could she think it would be alright?! She’d seen his neck the scars...And with the mirror..She knew exactly how he’d gotten it! Because of her...The Queen of Hearts had chopped off Papa’s head! His head! Papa had lost it! Yes...Someone had apparently sewn it back on; but, that didn’t make it okay! She couldn’t imagine living through something so horrible! His head had been separated from his body! And now...Grace was trying her hardest to get to him; and, Papa was working his hardest to get to her. But...Their feelings alone...Were they enough to reach?! So far they hadn’t been! Day in and day out, it was failure after failure for both of them! Papa couldn’t get a hat to work. Grace couldn’t find a portal. She was helpless! All she could do was watch over him like a ghost. As much as she screamed, as much as she wept, he could hear nothing. Once in a fit of depression when the neighbors were out and so she knew they wouldn’t hear, wouldn’t worry, she flung the mirror across the wall. The intention hadn’t been to break it of course. Now it was the only connection between her and Papa even if it was only a one way mirror. But...It had just gotten to be too much. Papa had finished another hat and just...Nothing! Why?! Why had she believed that time would be different?! Why had she stoked her hopes until they were blazing?! Just...She’d found nothing. He’d made nothing. So many days...Grace had lost track of how long Papa had been gone. Here time was the enemy. She didn’t want to measure the passing of days. It was depressing. It was better if one day could just bleed into the next without noting the passage of time at all. It was just another day without Papa. Another week. Another year. Another birthday. Another Christmas. No Papa. Just Grace and the neighbors who couldn’t possibly understand Grace’s sense of loss or the guilt that plagued her for the cruel separation. Honestly, sometimes she felt closer to her magic mirror than them. The mirror was the only thing that could show her Papa, let her know he was alright. Only he wasn’t alright! He was sick and unhappy! He was miserable! And all he could do was make hat after hat! Each day as she gazed in the mirror she’d fight to be optimistic. She’d whisper “You can do it Papa!”, knowing he would never hear her. But...she had to try and encourage him in her own way! She couldn’t admit she was entirely powerless to help her beloved Papa when he was trapped in a faraway world. But each day more and more of her hope slipped away. Another hat. Another failure. Sometimes even her faith could waver; and, she’d wonder if she’d ever really see her papa again. Today...Today was such a day. But..She hadn’t given up! She hadn’t! That’s why she’s smuggled herself aboard this ship! Maybe Papa would be upset if he knew...But she couldn’t just sit back and do nothing while he worked so hard! She knew the neighbors would be upset, especially since this wasn’t the first time she’d disappeared. But...What could she do?! They weren’t looking for him. She tried not to blame them for that. He wasn’t their family after all. But Papa was Grace’s, the only family she had in all the worlds! She had to do her very best to help! Just why...Why wasn't anything she did good enough?! Because she was weak...Because she'd been selfish..Papa suffered! She just...She wished the neighbors hadn’t given up on Papa. They didn’t think he was ever coming back. But he was! Soon Grace and him would be a family again! She’d make it so! She just...Had to hold on a bit longer, had to be brave! Grace wrapped her arms around her knees, pulling them to her chest. Then she laid her head on top of her knees. That way even if someone should stumble upon her, they wouldn’t see the tears.
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