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I thought pirates

only cared about themselves

Bae knew that if he could handle his papa then he could handle anything that he encountered out there. Besides he didn't want to stay with someone who lied to him, and, it wasn't like he had anything to lose anymore. He didn't know what to expect on the island, but, it couldn't be any worse then his papa and what he'd seen him do back in the Forest. This Pan couldn't really be that bad could he? Especially if he had to make other people do his work for him. Besides he was already trapped in this world Neverland with no way off thanks to that Shadow, so it's not like he could leave anyway. "It's nothing new for me having alot to handle." Bae responded as he continued to refuse to look at Hook, instead glancing out to the sea. Dangers for him were nothing new, but, he still wasn't quite sure what to expect on the island of Neverland and how it would be different to here on the Jolly Roger. But, he didn't care, because Hook was just like his father. Selfish and putting on an act to serve his purposes. "You definitely should have"

"Well, I guess we'll never know will we?" Bae asked, knowing that this may have been true. "I wouldn't have done that. Well, I may have wanted to, but, I wouldn't have reacted the way you assumed I would." Bae would have been angry, but, he would've realised that Hook was his one connection to his mother, but, now he had nothing but pain inside of being lied to or hurt by someone else he let himself get close to. Plus the added pain of his mother abandoning him too. Bae now knew that Hook was seeing him as his papa's biggest weakness, and, always had. Which made him just a pawn, an object to trade. "I don't think it's that easy to re-do or rebuild trust. How am I supposed to believe any of that? If I gave you a second chance, what would you change? How would it be different?" Bae just wanted one person in his life to be completely honest with him, and, not answering questions in vague ways to allow his feelings to be spared. He had always thought his papa was that person, but, now he knows that his papa constantly lied to him. From the sounds of it, his mother had never really loved him at all. She must've if she could leave him so easily. For a life with this... pirate.

Finally glancing at the pirate when he said no to his comment about his mother loving him more then her own son, and, he wondered how this wasn't true. "So, she loved me enough to abandon me. How is that supposed to make me feel better? She wanted to come back for me but never did. She had what... like 5 years to figure out whether this would be a better life for me. She also had that much time to come and find me." Bae choked back the sob that got caught in his throat, at the ending of these words to Hook. No matter how much he tried to spin it, his mother had abandoned him, even though she had years to do all that figuring out, and, to come back for him. If Hook was right and they fell in love, then how was it right that the love for him was stronger? None of this made any sense to him, and, how was he supposed to know that he would've been collected by his mother? She left when he was 9, he was now 14. That gave her a few years to figure it out. And he was told she had been killed, a year later. Bae hadn't minded that reasoning, but, now he learnt that she hadn't been dead, at least not before abandoning him first.

"What do you mean?" Bae asked, wondering what exactly he'd lied to him about. But, Bae raised his eyebrows in a way to imply that his papa wasn't the only one. "I don't really care whether the intentions were different, you still lied to me. And what intentions could you have had for lying to me that could possibly make me feel better?" Bae had to know why, why he had lied to him. Especially if he cared so much about him as he is trying to convince him he was. Hearing him say he was there the day she died, Bae raised his eyebrows before turning towards him rather then the sea, keeping his grip on the ropes above his head. "Well, then why don't you tell me what really happened that day then." Bae needed to hear the story before he decided whether he believed any of it. He just wasn't sure what to believe anymore. Especially not right now.

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I thought pirates

only cared about themselves

Bae was just standing there as he waited for Hook to drop him off of the boat, so that he could conjure the Shadow again and go back to the Darlings. The only family he had now. As he heard Hook speak, he just stared out in front of him out towards the water and Neverland. "I know, but, I can handle it." Bae said, sighing softly. This may not have been exactly true, but, there was no risk of losing anything anymore. He could defend himself, and find a way back to the world that had begun to feel like home.

"Protect me?" Bae asked, scoffing slightly. The pirate who was using him, was going to 'protect him.' Listening to the sound of the waves against the rocks and the boat, Bae awaited an explanation from Hook. Either that or for him to drop him off like he wanted. "Well, it would've been better for you to tell me straight up. Instead of lying to me and pretending you'd never heard my name before, until I had to find out on my own." Bae may have been hurt still, but, it would've probably gotten a better reaction if he had just told him from the start. Someone actually being honest with him from the word go. Especially someone who he'd felt like a father to him.

Feeling the tears fall from his eyes again as Hook confirmed that his mother had left of his own free will, because she loved this 'pirate'. "Love? So her love for you was stronger then for me?" Bae asked, not really wanting the answer to this question, more just wanting to vent. Mentioning his father made Bae's heart twanged slightly, he was just reminding him of someone else who had lied to him. "My father never mentioned you at all. All he said was that a group of pirates killed her. But, now I realise that everyone I've ever known has lied to me. You're no better then him." Bae said, knowing it may not be exactly true, but, he was angry and from what he'd seen. It was the truth.

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I thought pirates

only cared about themselves

Reaching the top of the deck, Bae looked away and out to the sea as he saw Hook coming towards him. Continuing not to look into his eyes, Bae kept his gaze out and cleared his throat “Just drop me off anywhere.” Bae said, as an answer to his question. He wasn't going to stay here with someone who had done nothing, but, lie to him and use him from the start.

Bae continued to glance out to sea, before finally facing Hook and looking in his eyes. The loss in Bae's own eyes had grown since the revelation of the truth about Hook's history with both of his parents. The twang in Bae's heart had become a lot worse, knowing that he had been unwanted by neither of his parents, since his mother had abandoned him too.

Focusing his attention on the man standing beside him, Bae looked up at him. The pain still on his face from being lied to by the man who he had started to let in, and had become a father type figure to him. A better one then his actual father.

The next part of Hook's speech made him stand there leaning against the top pole of the ship. “Properly explain what? How you were the reason I lost my mother, and knew who I was the whole time I was on this ship?” Bae asked, sighing softly. Bae had had some serious trust issues, of course it was because of when his father broke their deal. He didn't want to risk hearing more of the story with how his mother was happy here, and had been, instead of with him and his papa.

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