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Post by regina2 on Mar 5, 2015 23:47:43 GMT
Jefferson’s touch was every bit as soft and tender as she remembered. It was a like a warm blanket being wrapped around her. She could nestle inside it forever. If only she could...But such melancholy thoughts would do her no good. Jefferson was here now. She’d appreciate every last second before the king’s cruel schedule harshly ripped her away from her dear friend and...Yes, it was safer to think of him that way, as a dear friend. Surely he wouldn’t want the trouble of anything more. Not with Leopold being the way he was. And what about Daniel?! But was there any point in lying to herself? She knew the signs quite well by now thanks to Daniel, the rosy cheeks, the erratic heartbeat, the way thoughts could stray to him at any point in the day. The way she craved his touch. The way his face haunted her dreams. The way she grew excited at the very prospect of seeing him. How she fussed with her hair and her clothes more than usual when she knew he was coming. How she thought so much of pleasing him, of gracing his lips with as smile. The way her fingers burned, yearning to make contact, to run through his hair or caress his cheek. The way she woke up and thought first of him, wondering if today was the day they would meet again. The way how throughout the day when she had a choice to make her thoughts would drift to him and what he’d prefer, how he’d respond. The way she tried to think up fun and clever things to tell him next time they met...Didn’t it all add up to one thing? Why?! How...How could this man so completely stir her trembling soul?! He cloud everything! With him...She was happy. But...She didn’t know what was right or wrong! It had only been a few months since Daniel’s passing! How would Daniel feel if he could read Regina’s heart?! Would he think her a traitor, someone so easily changeable and unreliable, inconsistent?! No! He wouldn’t be like that would he?! Hadn’t Regina fallen in love with him because of his kindness, his sweet heart?! Wouldn’t he want Regina to be happy after everything?! He’d told her to marry Leopold when he thought that would please her, give her everything she wanted. He was a fool to think that way! Regina cared nothing for riches. Greed wasn’t her problem. All she wanted was to be loved and understood, held and cared for. She longed for someone to appreciate her thoughts and ideas, her very nature. But...In the end had Daniel not understood? How could he think she’d ever choose someone else over him? But here...Jefferson seemed to understand. He knew Regina wasn’t happy here. And..he seemed a little less naive than Daniel. Daniel had truly believed that if Regina explained things to Mother, she’d accept them. He really thought Mother cared about Regina’s feelings. “It’s not your life after everything I’ve sacrificed. It’s mine.” She’d told Regina that quite clearly before...No! She wouldn’t go there! She didn’t want to remember! Why did she have to remember so clearly?! That scene was forever etched in her mind and heart. Mother stood upright in the stables. She appeared stoic, same as always. Yes, that had never failed to irritate Regina. No matter what intense argument the two were having, no matter what was going on, Mother’s expression rarely shifted. After she’d coldly and callously ripped Daniel’s heart from his chest just after saying that a parent must always do what was best for their child, her eyes had never grown moist. The smallest hint of remorse or regret didn’t mar her features. She’d stood there, holding the dust that was left of his heart, carelessly letting it slip through her fingers to the straw beneath, face as firm and resolute as ever. As Regina wept and cradled her lost love, kissed those lips that were still warm, Mother hadn’t betrayed any sign of emotion. She’d had the gall to tell Regina to stop crying and pull herself together because she had a wedding to prepare for. Mother’s emotions, if she had any, were difficult to decipher. No...Mother did have at least some. Her frustration with Regina was proof of that. No..Why?! Why was she thinking like this?! But more importantly...Why had she done what Mother wanted after she’d finally been given a choice, a say in her future?! But...She just hadn’t known what else to do. And so she’d traded one prison for another. The faces changed. But really...In terms of freedom, there was little difference. She leaned into Jefferson’s touch and tried to think of more pleasant things. Jefferson was here now. He always made everything better, soothing her wavering heart. Even when her tears were gone, Jefferson kept his hand on her cheek. It felt so warm. She closed her eyes to better appreciate the gesture. If he could just stay here like this forever, she knew she could be happy. Bright amber orbs blinked up at him, filled with hope when he said they wouldn’t waste their limited time, his smile emboldening her. She echoed the expression, eyes lighting up as a smile tugged at her lips, cheeks tinging pink. “Don’t say fifty-nine! I won’t accept that!” she said stubbornly, trying to keep her expression firm. It was a losing battle. At his lighter smile, her lips curled upwards and any illusion of fierceness was quickly shattered. “I’m getting a whole hour with you!” she insisted. “And it starts now!” She didn’t care if Leopold threw a fit! She wanted her 60 minutes with him, all of it! Her eyes followed him as she spun. His energy was always a breath of fresh air. And although she could tire of Rumple’s dramatics, spending a great deal of time training with him, Jefferson’s were special. They had a hint of Rumple; but, they were their own unique form. And Regina loved them to death like she..No! She wouldn’t think it! It was too dangerous for Jefferson! And she doubted he’d appreciate it! She didn’t even know how he felt about her! Before she knew what was happening, his arm was linked through hers and her heart skyrocketed. It pounded so loudly in her chest she was sure he must hear it! But he was so close, holding her like this. Yes, this touch was more casual but..They were still holding arms! To her...It was significant. Regina was positively radiant, grinning from ear to ear, glowing when Jefferson asked where she wanted to go. “Could you take me somewhere with your hat?!” she breathed. Even if it was just for a little bit, she longed to get away, go somewhere private, some place just for the two of them. And...She’d come to love magic. And she found Jefferson’s work especially magnificent. Seeing him activate the hat never failed to make her smile or even laugh. It was...truly incredible. Jefferson was brilliant.
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Post by regina2 on Mar 5, 2015 22:59:52 GMT
Regina could get through this..She could! Jefferson was coming to see her tonight! And not just any Jefferson, her Jefferson! She could call him that now! He was hers and she was his! It didn’t matter that she was married to Leopold! The marriage was in name only. Jefferson was the one that held her heart, captivated her, brought her love and joy and so many things. She was thoroughly convinced he was the only reason she’d lasted this long. Starved of kindness and affection, surely her heart would shatter even if her body kept moving, kept breathing, somehow kept functioning. Without a heart..It would be the same as dying. No..It would be worse. If her heart literally stopped beating, at least then people would acknowledge her death, accept that Regina the sweet if a bit naive noble existed no more. But if only her heart broke...Would people understand the kind, willful dreamer no longer walked this earth?! Would they even care?! Just a bit longer...A bit longer...It was so hard to push back the tears, to move as Leopold wished. But she had to! She wouldn’t soon forget the last time her weak heart had forced the tears to trickle down her cheek when she was in such a compromising position. It didn’t matter that they were silent. It didn’t matter that she was doing her duty as wife, what was expected of her. Leopold had...Made it quite clear she’d ruined the mood, none too gently. His urges were left unsatisfied and so she too must suffer. So..No...He was rough. He was cold. He was unfeeling. Her emotions meant nothing to him. She understood and would accept, would cope somehow. Just a little bit longer... When he finally released her, she was sick to her stomach. She hoped her face wasn’t green! But...She could hardly help it! Even moving was a bit strenuous after...No! She wasn’t thinking about it! It was done! For now...But how much longer until he called her to his bedside again? A few days? A week? She doubted it would be longer than that. For an old man who clearly held no love for her, he certainly had quite the appetite. Regina just counted her lucky stars she hadn’t been cursed with child. If she had...She wasn’t sure even Jefferson could stop her from throwing herself over the balcony. To have his seed growing inside her...Her stomach plummeted at the thought. No! If she was having a child it would be Jefferson’s and no one else’s! He was the one her heart longed for, the one she truly wanted to be with! She hustled back to her room as quickly as she could given her state. If she could just see him..He’d make everything better as he always did! Really, he was a blessing, a gift, the only person she could rely on in this dark, dark world. Regina finally reached her chambers and threw open the door, eyes darting around like mad, seeking out his face in the somber shadows. If he wasn’t there...She’d collapse in a fit of tears for sure. She needed him after this rough night. “Jefferson?” she choked out, fingers tripping over themselves to light a candle, tears already brimming in her eyes. She didn’t want to be alone! Not now! Please..Please let him be here!
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Post by regina2 on Mar 5, 2015 19:06:15 GMT
By the gods...His smile was gorgeous! Every time..It never failed to melt her heart. If there was a word to describe his smile...She’d say it was hope. Hope was such a rare and fleeting thing within these frigid walls. But his smile spoke of promises, of joy. What the promises were...She couldn’t say herself. But she knew he was genuinely glad to see her, her Regina not the queen with power who could grant odd requests and offer sanctuary. Jefferson never seemed to care about her titles. He just..If Regina had to guess, she’d say he wished for her happiness even more than Father did. Such a strange notion...What was it about her that drew him to her so? They hadn’t known each other all that long, just a brief spell, a span of months. And already to her, Jefferson was irreplaceable. She looked forward to nothing so much as his visits.
There were typically two men that occupied her thoughts in a positive fashion. Daniel and Jefferson. And Daniel...She didn’t want to say he was forced to the sidelines. He was so very important,crucial irreplaceable. But he was gone...The more time that passed the more keenly she felt the separation. He stood still while she was pushed forward. With Jefferson...There were new memories. There were brand new stories, tales of adventures of epic proportions involving different worlds even! There were new gestures and new smiles. There was so much to look forward to! He could...He could still hold her, like the way he was now. He didn’t shy away from her touch because she was queen, already claimed; and, because she had an extremely jealous husband. Here he was, returning her hug. The tears just wouldn’t stop. He was the only man willing to talk to her, be near her. Everyone else was too scared of Leopold’s wrath.
Jefferson moved back and the parting was near painful. But the grief was lessened slightly by his insistence that he’d missed her too. Well..Maybe insistence was too strong a word. Like usual, his words were light and airy, whimsical and poetic, truly beautiful to behold. It was like...There was some natural distance about him, a separation, a bubble that couldn’t be penetrated. It wasn’t that he was cold or unfeeling. Now, he was the only person who could stir passion and tenderness within her. And her heart wouldn’t flutter like this. She wouldn’t find it so difficult to breathe when he touched her, when she breathed in his scent if he she didn’t think he cared. But...Sometimes...Alright...Often times...She worried she cared more for him than him for her. Regina was the sort who wore her heart on her sleeve. When she was given the slightest chance, she was open and affectionate. Cruel circumstances had forced her to become sullen and withdrawn. She couldn’t speak of what happened with Daniel to anyone. It would hurt Snow and enrage the king. She had to keep it all to herself. Well...That wasn’t quite true...Jefferson knew of what happened. At her darkest moments, she could confide in him, tell him her genuine thoughts, all the grief and guilt that plagued her.
And he’d listen. He didn’t seem to think her foolish or stupid. Naive maybe...Well that was fair. She had been. She’d honestly thought marrying Leopold would give her freedom. Now she was more caged than ever. It was suffocating! Really, it was no different than living with Mother! Every moment from dawn until dusk was controlled by him! She chose nothing for herself! And he certainly didn’t care any more for her thoughts!
Regina sighed at his question, smile drooping. “Leopold only allows me an hour in the garden.” Why?! Why must he keep her from the apple tree he knew brought her such comfort?! What exactly did he think she could do in the garden?! Did he want her to be miserable?! Did he care nothing for her feelings?!
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Post by regina2 on Mar 5, 2015 18:06:33 GMT
Another day in a gilded cage. Regina wasn’t certain just how much more she could take. Leopold was so cold to her. When she had asked him a question about the politics he’d stared at her as though she was an insect to be squashed, an unappealing bug who had no place in his presence. Yes, he’d told her before that he didn’t like to be disturbed when he was dealing with matters of state but she was queen! Surely, she needed to be involved with the politics. If something were to happen to him it would be Regina who assumed the throne. Surely he didn’t intend to leave her clueless. Although it seemed he did. All her efforts to get him to let her in, to explain the workings of the kingdom over which he ruled, failed miserably. No, he’d made it perfectly clear that he only wished to see Regina at meals, formal occasions, and at his bedside when the urge struck him. Otherwise she was to leave him alone, stay out of sight and out of mind. He didn’t even take Regina with him when he traveled. Although given the way he treated her, that was a mercy more than anything. Finally without his restraining presence she was given a bit of freedom. She was actually allowed to leave the castle grounds. For someone who didn’t pay Regina the least bit of attention, he was certainly paranoid about her non-existent affections towards him straying. Isolation was the word. In the whole gigantic castle, Regina had none she could call friend. The funny thing was, the person who cost her everything was the kindest to her. Regina had been trying to distance herself from the sweet girl, though. Her heart had...darkened considerably since the day they first met. Regina’s happy ending had been crushed as thoroughly as her beloved’s heart. And Snow was at least in part to blame. Regina continuously had to remind herself that it really wasn’t entirely her fault. Mother was the one to blame. She’d manipulated the young girl. But still...It ate away at her day after day, the thought that if Snow had only kept her promise...Daniel would still be here. Regina would be with him. They could have been happy. They could have already had a family together. But everything that could have been was lost in a single heart wrenching instant. The moment Snow had opened her crimson colored lips, Daniel and thus Regina was doomed. But day after day she reminded herself, Daniel loved her for her kind heart. What had happened was tragic but an accident at least on Snow’s part, a terrible mistake. The naive little princess hadn’t understood the weight of her words. And Regina hadn’t forgotten her role in this tragedy. She wasn’t entirely blameless. Daniel was dead because out of everyone in the entire world, he’d chosen to love Regina. Because Regina had returned his feelings, because she wished to stay with him, choose him over wealth and power, Mother viewed him as an obstacle. And Regina knew all too well how Mother dealt with obstacles. If she’d pushed Daniel way or if she’d run away with him sooner...Things could have been very different. But she hadn’t. She’d waited until it was too late. And so Daniel had paid the price. But...Daniel had to be the only one who lost his kind heart. His spirit would never be at peace if he thought Regina had turned cruel. She didn’t want to end up like her mother. So she was trying her hardest to see the good in Snow. Snow was sweet. She was sheltered and careless but not malevolent. She hadn’t meant to break Regina’s heart, just her promise. No. She corrected herself. There she went again, being unfair. This is why she tried to keep her distance from the only person in the castle who showed her compassion. She was scared that if she spent too much time with her, one day she’d snap and wring her pretty little neck. Snow didn’t understand how people truly felt. One day Regina feared Snow would push her too far, say or do the wrong thing and Regina’s composure would shatter like a crystal ball hurled against the wall. If Regina kept Snow at arm’s length, hopefully she wouldn’t come to hate her. Snow did have a kind soul. She could just be misguided at times because she wanted to see the best in everyone. But sadly, most weren’t as noble or affectionate as Snow believed. Mother had been calculating, cruel, and vindictive. But Snow had seen no trace of such disturbing traits and because of that...Enough! None of this was helping! She’d had a rough enough day as it was. She needed some space because friends were simply something she didn’t have in the castle. There were none to console her. People either wished to manipulate her position for gain or were too scared to approach her, not wishing to accidentally offend the new queen. No one understood the pain she harbored deep in her heart. Father was the closes. He alone knew what had become of Daniel. But he was rarely allowed to visit Regina. And besides, he had thought the marriage was the best thing for her even after Daniel’s cold and callous murder. As much as he wished for Regina’s happiness, he didn’t seem to understand her heart. She wasn’t ambitious like mother. She wished to be happy! She wanted love. But that was lost to her forever. But then...There was someone else..Her lips twitched into a smile at the thought. No, he wasn’t in the castle; but, there was a...was it a friend? Jefferson...He’d come to visit her a lot recently, ever since their little adventure together. And now...She felt his visits were the only thing that sustained her in this cold, unfeeling, isolated world. His stories, the tender touch of his hand on her back, his breath on her ear...Her cheeks flushed a bit at the thought and her heart had this strange...fluttering effect. She remembered this precious feeling but...It couldn’t be it, could it?! Daniel...But...He was gone. And she knew he was never coming back. Jefferson had proved it. And well...Daniel wouldn’t want her to be miserable forever. Regina didn’t want to lie to herself. Jefferson soothed her. She wasn’t sure exactly what it was about him that stirred such feelings inside her. He was handsome. There was no denying it. And that certainly helped. But she was drawn to his spirit more than his appearance, his gentleness, his kindness, the way he spoke to her like she was a person, not just a queen. He was snide. He was pushy. He acted like he was an equal; and, she loved him for that. Love?! Was that...She only meant..It was nice that someone wasn’t scared of her or just sizing her up like she was some delicious morsel to swallow whole. And..He called her Regina. Not your majesty. Not queen. When he stared at her with those sharp blue eyes of his (some of the most beautiful eyes she’d ever seen if she was being perfectly honest), she felt like he was seeing the real her, not some pretty little doll, not some political figurehead; but, just Regina, the scared little noble who wanted to be kind and do the right thing even though she didn’t have the first clue as to what that was. She knew so very little. She was lost and confused and still...Jefferson stood beside her, supported her. She didn’t get to see him as much as she liked. Of course not. He was busy with his travels and she well...She was hardly ever allowed to leave the castle grounds. And when she was granted rare permission, she needed a royal escort...Hardly inconspicuous. And everything she said and did was relayed straight back to Leopold. So...Jefferson had to come to her. Regina hoped he could visit again soon. Her heart withered away in a place like this. She needed Jefferson’s soothing presence, his sweet words to remind her that kindness did exist, that there were good people out there; and, she could be one of them. She would be one of them! Maybe..Maybe it had been a mistake; but, feeling trapped after everything, she’d decided to marry Leopold. And since she had...She was going to become the queen this kingdom deserved! She was going to learn the politics behind everything and make things better! She just...had to figure out how to start...(At least she had managed to secure Jefferson a royal passport as promised! That was something wasn’t it?!) The apple tree, the dear friend she’d tended since she was a child, that was her only consolation in this frigid and unwelcoming palace. She quickened her pace, longing to be in its comforting presence as soon as possible. Some time there and her heart would be somewhat restored. She could remember the good in Snow and again come to understand that what happened hadn’t really been her fault. Regina was kind. Daniel had told her so! She just needed to rekindle old feelings. When Regina rescued Snow from that out of control horse, they’d shared a bond. Maybe it was possible she could get that back in time. A smile played across her lips as she hurried towards her tree, a smile that widened immediately upon recognizing a dashing figure standing beneath it. Her heart leapt in her throat; and, she found herself entirely unable to speak for a moment. She hadn’t realized he was coming that today, that she could see the most important person in her sheltered little world! She just stood there for a minute, utterly frozen, eyes shining with glee, amber orbs dangerously close to tears. “Jefferson!” she cried out with unbridled joy when she could finally coax her tongue to move. Without a thought, she sprinted towards him and wrapped her arms around him in a tight hug. “I’ve missed you so much!” Please...Please let him work his magic like he always did. Let him remind her who she was, what she wanted. Let his tender smile and gentle touch, his warmhearted yet theatrical words bring her peace, bring her bliss, bring her affection and let her believe in the best not just of him but in Snow, in herself, in the world. Bit by bit, her kind heart was crumbling. Daniel wasn’t here anymore. His memory alone couldn’t save her. No...The only one Regina could rely on in this cruel, harsh, unyielding planet was her dear Jefferson. He alone could save her soul, piece her sweet heart back together, preserve it, and make it stronger. She squeezed him more tightly, a few tears brimming in her eyes before spilling over onto his shoulder.
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Post by regina2 on Mar 5, 2015 4:37:52 GMT
This was a really bad idea. Regina knew it and still here she was....She shouldn’t be paying anyone any visits right now, especially Jefferson. One, Jefferson had so many reasons to hate her. She’d separated him from his daughter twice now, once with the Wonderland trip and once in Storybrooke however accidental the second time had been. And then when she’d made another deal with him...She’d broken her agreement again. It was stupid. She could have given him what he wanted. Ten minutes would have been enough time. She probably would have only needed three to adjust two sets of memories. (She was quite adept at memory spells by now. And with the curse under her control, it was even easier to play head games.) But Henry, her son, had been in a coma! She didn’t want to waste a single second on anyone else, even though she knew Henry probably couldn’t hear anything she said. And...Yes, she’d maybe been a little petty. If she couldn’t have her happy ending, if she couldn’t have her family, why should Jefferson get his? She was jealous. She’d lost her father. Yes, she’d been the one to rip out his heart herself, sacrifice him for the sake of the dark curse but...He was still her family! He’d understood; but, she missed him. Without his presence, she could feel so cold, so empty. He might have been weak willed and pitiful, wishing for happiness and doing nothing more no matter how much she needed him; but, the fact that someone cared about her through everything, it always brought her some semblance of comfort. She’d needed that, especially when she was know as the ‘Evil Queen’. Whole towns seemed to hate her; but, at least she had her father’s love. That was something. He was dead now. So her son, Henry had been all she had left. And she’d feared she would lose him forever. Of course she would fight for him, do anything in her power to bring him back. But she understood better than most that sometimes people couldn’t be saved. And she’d been terrified this was one of those times, that Henry would just slip away because of her mistake, her deal. And Jefferson had played a part in it and however irrational it had been, that made her furious with him. If he hadn’t gotten the hat to work, if he hadn’t brought back the apple, they wouldn’t be in that mess. Yes, she knew it was ridiculous to blame him for something she’d asked for herself. As he'd said many years before, “I told you I deliver”. And he had. She was the one who’d been careless. She should have sat Emma down and watched her eat it. But no, she’d simply let her leave with the apple turnover. What was she doing?! Beating herself up for past sins wouldn’t do her any good now. She had so much regret she could drown it. But Archie...No one believed her; but, she hadn’t killed him! Why in the world would she do something so idiotic after she’d promised her son she could change that she would redeem herself?! Even if she had killed the annoying grasshopper for chirping in the wrong ears, she’d never be so obvious about it. Regina had gotten away with orchestrating the king’s death. Taking care of one lone psychiatrist would have been much simpler. But no one was willing to give her the benefit of the doubt not even Henry. She’d watched his face when Emma told him that she'd murdered Archie, through the window of her car. He believed it, every word. Now...The only person she thought who might believe her was Jefferson. They might have...a rather complicated history; but, he knew her, better than most. He’d met her almost right after she’d become queen. She had been so young and naive back then. He’d seen her change; but, he should understand that this wasn’t her, that she had no reason to kill Archie. Regina might be a whimsical creature at moments; but, despite what people thought, killing wasn’t something she did lightly. If it was necessary she’d do it, typically without hesitation. And if someone crossed her, there would be no mercy. But an argument...She wasn’t so petty that she’d rip someone’s life away for that. And if she was that badly traumatized by his remarks, she would have done something right then on the spot. The little werewolf couldn’t have stopped her. She’d been avoiding Jefferson ever since the curse broke. Their last meeting had not ended well, Regina declaring she was done with him after going back on their deal. And they’d never had a proper conversation about Wonderland during their little chat. No, they’d been too focused on Storybrooke issues; and, Regina hadn’t wanted to touch that topic with a 50 foot pole. Sometimes the guilt still twisted her heart. What could she say to him? Sorry wouldn’t cut it, not after what she’d cost him. And now his hat was ruined too. Although that was more Charming’s and George’s fault than hers. She’d tried to protect Jefferson, keep him out of Charming’s insane quest by telling him she didn’t remember who she’d gotten the hat from. But apparently Charming had found Jefferson anyways. She couldn’t imagine the tactful prince handled things well. So...She had another thing to add to the list of apologies she owed him, likely apologies that would never be voiced. Regina finally made it to Jefferson’s mansion and paused outside his door. She shouldn’t be here. People were looking for her. If they found her here, she’d just drag Jefferson into her troubles which was the last thing he needed. He didn’t handle people well to begin with. But surely...No one would think to look here; and, it would probably be a fairly quick visit. She just needed to hear that one person believed her, that one person knew she wasn’t the monster the whole town thought her to be. She took a deep breath and knocked, praying that Jefferson would be the better person, that he’d let her in after everything, be willing to see her if only for just a minute. If he didn’t...She’d truly have nothing.
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Post by regina2 on Mar 5, 2015 4:23:46 GMT
It wasn’t enough! It just wasn’t enough. The curse was supposed to be her happy ending. She’d separated Snow White from her beloved Prince Charming. Snow was so far gone she never even realized she’d lost him. She didn’t even know who she was. The girl was practically afraid of her own shadow. Every time Regina came near her, she just jumped and tried to back away as quickly as possible. She didn’t fight back. There was just...Nothing. A hole in her heart. That’s what it felt like. Nothing she did...Nothing satisfied her. It was like she couldn’t feel properly. She still had emotions. There was frustration and anger. But she wasn’t content. She wasn’t happy like she was supposed to be. Rumple told her before. “Something’s missing, isn’t it dearie? Now there’s a hole in your heart.” He’s said she’d underestimated the price of what she’d done. She hadn’t wanted to believe him. But now...Now she couldn’t help but wonder if he’d been right. At first when Owen and Kurt Flynn came to town she’d been horrified and livid. This was her curse. Strangers weren’t welcome. Strangers weren’t even supposed to get in. It was just supposed to be the people she brought over. But then...Owen had given her something, something special, something she hadn’t even realized was missing. The child had given her meaning, purpose. She was...happy. She liked to see him smile. Regina had only wanted to look after him, be with him. She’d offered his father a job; but, he’d turned it down. He wished to take Owen away from her! Why?! Why was everything precious snatched away?! Was someone like Regina not allowed to be happy for more than a moment?! One brief week of joy and then...like everything else in her life, it all went to hell. They’d tried to leave so Regina tried to stop them. She knew they could be happy there! Own wanted to stay! Kurt would like Storybrooke too if he’d only give it a chance! She knew they could both live happily and peacefully there. But Kurt wasn’t even willing to consider it! He was going to take Owen away, the only thing that made her happy! She couldn’t handle that. Not again! She’d lost Daniel and her father and so many things. Why?! Why did she have to lose Owen too?! The huntsmen had restrained the father. Regina had managed to get to the little boy. She assured him everything was fine, that she wasn’t going to hurt him. Crying, he’d asked why she was doing this. All she’d wanted was for him to stay! He said he’d liked it here! But when she asked Owen if he’d wanted to stay, he’d said, “Not like this”. Seeing how scared and upset he was, Regina had given him something precious, something rare, an apology and a genuine explanation. She’d told him that she was sorry that she’d only wanted them to be happy. And then she’d let him go. She wasn’t like her mother. She wouldn’t force a child to stay, not when they wanted to be somewhere else. It had killed her; but, she’d released him, let him run off. She knew she’d never see him again. He wouldn’t be able to find his way back to Storybrooke. It was some sort of miracle him and his father had found it in the first place. They’d just happened to be camping in the right place at the right time. But now...Owen had left. He wasn’t in the middle of everything anymore. And the magic she’d used to build Storybrooke, it kept everyone she hadn’t ripped away from their worlds out. Even should he come back, Own wouldn’t be able to see it. Owen gone...She felt so empty. Her eyes were moist and she knew she was close to crying. But she couldn’t! She wouldn’t! There would be no point! But...she needed comfort. And before she’d realized it, her strides had brought her to the absolute last place she should go. Why was she here? She’d find no peace here, not behind these walls. But all the same, after all they’d shared, she couldn’t get his face out of her head. And she needed someone, someone who knew what was going on. Hatred would be better than the blank glances everyone else gave her. They didn’t know the real her! They only thought she was some scary mayor. Almost no one even called her Regina. But Jefferson would. At least she hoped he would. She needed that right now, someone to see her as Regina, not as a mayor or an evil queen, just Regina. She was still human after all. If she rang the doorbell, she wasn’t sure if Jefferson would even answer. And she had to see him. So instead of doing the polite thing, she extracted her skeleton keys, rifling through them until she found the one with Jefferson’s symbol, the top hat. She slid the key into the lock and turned until she heard that satisfying click that said her work was done. She pushed open the door and stepped inside, letting the door swing shut behind her. “Jefferson,” she called out softly, voice choked up. Weak. Even to her ears, the tone sounded pitiful, pathetic even. What was she even doing here? What did she expect from him?
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Post by regina2 on Mar 4, 2015 3:32:58 GMT
| ~ • ~ | Character Basics | ~ • ~ |
.:Name:. Regina Mills .:Nick Name:. N/A .:Affiliation:. Has been everything from villain to hero. .:Status:. Noble
| ~ • ~ | Appearance | ~ • ~ |
.:Physical Appearance:. Short wavy brown hair. Brown Eyes. Posture is tall and proud. .:Height:. 5ft. 5 inches. .:Portrayed by:. Lana Parrilla
| ~ • ~ | Personality | ~ • ~ |
.:Personality:. Regina is super driven to get what she wants. The only problem is she typically doesn’t understand what she wants. She thinks she understands herself so well but her heart is often a complete mystery to her. She wants to be loved and appreciated but she typically twists that desire and thinks all she craves is power and if she controls people she will be loved. And if she can’t have love she’ll be feared and that’s enough. So long as people listen to her that’s fine. As a little girl and even as an adult it was all about what her mother wanted. Her needs and desires were thrown by the way side. She remembers that feeling of helplessness and never wants to experience it again. As such she lashes out and tries to control everything so she will never again be in a submissive position. She’s used and manipulated people and in turn she’s been used and manipulated so she has a very difficult time trusting anyone or opening up. She truly loves her son Henry more than anything. Fearing he won’t reciprocate her feelings, she often makes poor decisions, trying to force his love. But in the end she genuinely wants him to love and accept her and she doesn’t wish any harm to befall him. She will not forgive anyone who tries to harm him or anyone who tries to take him away from her. She has many fears, including becoming like her mother. Her relationship with her mother is/was incredibly complicated and she doesn’t want to resemble her at all. She has a temper and is easily offended. She will never let go of a grudge until the debt had been repaid. She doesn’t care how much she will hurt herself to extract vengeance, revenge takes priority. .:Strengths:. powerful sorceress, driven (will go as far as need be to accomplish her goals), the will to bounce back from any hardship .:Weaknesses:. has a tendency to overlook what she really wants, is addicted to magic, is a super control freak
| ~ • ~ | History | ~ • ~ |
.:Birthplace:. Enchanted Forest .:Family:. Henry-Father Cora/Queen of Hearts-Mother Henry Mills-adoptive son .:Occupation:. Queen in the Enchanted Forest. Mayor in Storybrooke. .:History:. Regin is born to Prince Henry the son of a wealthy king Xavior and Cora, the daughter of a poor miller. Regina’s childhood was a bit rough but manageable. Her mother was always pushing her, finding fault with everything she did, wanting her to learn faster and be the very best not just that she could be but that anyone could be. Fortunately, her father was much more kind hearted and accepting. When Cora wasn’t around he pampered Regina and took her on outings, praising her for all of her accomplishments. Where her mother scrutinized he complimented. And when he felt like Regina was truly at her wits end he stepped in. Regina loved her father more than anything. She tried to convince herself she loved her mother too but their relationship was always strained.
Regina hated being controlled and as she grew up riled against her mother when she felt her expectations were ridiculous and unfair which was often. Cora’s expectations were far too high. She wanted and expected perfection. Nothing less would satisfy. And she didn’t want Regina to have her own opinions but those she fed to her. As Regina wasn’t apt to swallow them there was often conflict. Power wasn’t important to Regina. She just wanted friends and a loving family. She wanted to look forward to her future. She often felt crushed by all the pressure her mother placed on her.
Even with her father’s support Regina would have likely had a mental breakdown if it weren’t for the stable boy for her father was timid and would give into Cora’s demands. But Daniel supported her. Daniel listened to her. Daniel truly loved her. Daniel became everything to her. As her mother grew more frustrated with Regina’s antics as she grew older, Daniel was a real stabilizer. He accepted everything about her and understood her frustrations. He was kind and kept her grounded. Daniel brought out the best in Regina and gave her hope for a better life. She wished she could be more open about their relationship but she knew her mother would put an end to it. So they kept it a secret.
Although she didn’t realize it everything began to spiral out of control when she met a young girl named Snow White. She rescued the young girl from an out of control horse. Being kind and caring, she comforted the child, making sure she was uninjured and that she didn’t give up horseback riding. Fears should not consume people and prevent them from moving forward.
Unfortunately the young girl was the king’s daughter. He had been searching for someone he felt would be a good mother to his daughter. To Regina’s horror he proposes to her. She can’t bring herself to speak so her mother answers for her, accepting. She runs to her true love, begging him to marry her. She tells him everything that happened and he gives her a ring he’d had waiting. She is delighted and the two kiss. Snow stumbles upon them as they kiss and runs outside, grieved and horrified. Regina rushes after her, knowing how important it is she keep this secret. But Snow falls and Regina is momentarily distracted, making sure she isn’t hurt. She explains to the upset Snow that true love is the most powerful force in all the world, the purest magic and it’s not something you can explain if you haven’t experienced it but she had that with Daniel and that was what she wanted, more than anything. Fortunately the sweet little girl understands and agrees to keep her secret.
The night Regina and Daniel are supposed to run away together Cora blocks their path. Regina’s blood turns to ice, fearing the worst. But Regina tries to reason with her mother, to make her understand that all she wants is true love, that that is her happiness. For a moment it seems like she’s moved her mother and that she will let her leave. Regina thanks her mother and her mother gives Daniel advice about being a parent. “You always have to do what’s best for your children.” Regina fears that something is wrong but isn’t sure what.
“And that’s what you’re doing right now, what’s best for your daughter,” Daniel said gratefully.
“Yes, I am.” And with that Cora rips Daniel’s heart out of his body. Regina screams but her mother crushes it beneath her fingers. A hysterical Regina runs to Daniel screaming his name. But he’s gone and she knows it. Still, there’s a small part of her that hopes he can be saved. She remembers that true love is the most powerful magic and nothing is more powerful than true love’s kiss. She kisses him praying for his life to be restored. But her kiss does nothing. He refuses to move and she is crushed.
Regina feels completely hollow and broken inside. But as Daniel is dead she doesn’t know what else to do but attend her wedding dress fitting. She barely notices anything. She speaks when spoken to and looks thoroughly dejected. Her eyes look past everything and she moves more like a doll than a person.
The only person she really takes note of is Snow. The littler girl she thought to be so sweet and understanding gushes about how happy she’ll be with Daniel and how lucky she is to have such a caring and understanding mother. Regina freezes and suddenly it all makes sense, how her mother finally found out after all these years. She’s horrified and appalled. She is filled with such an intense combination of rage and grief that she can barely get out her very important question. “Snow..You didn’t tell her did you?” The little girl who turns out not to be nearly as sweet as Regina believed confessed to telling her mother. The little girl is now seen for what she truly is, a cruel idiot. Her happy ending was ruined all because of that little monster. She saved her life and how did she repay her...With the ultimate treachery, a sin that could never be forgiven not if a thousand years should pass. She tries to calm herself and remind herself that Snow is just a little girl and she doesn’t want to do anything rash. Clinging to some semblance of her kinder hearted self, the one Daniel loved, she wishes to spare Snow’s feelings. She said Daniel ran away and that what they had wasn’t true love. But what she has with Snow’s father is the real thing. And she’ll become Snow’s new mother.
Cora returns and praises her daughter for handling everything so well. Regina could count the number of times she’d pleased her mother on one hand but she feels no joy. She again puts the pieces of the puzzle together, declaring that Snow’s fall was no accident. Her mother denies it but Regina knows the truth. She hates Snow even more for it. If she’d never saved Snow, Daniel would still be alive. Daniel was more important. Daniel was her true love and Daniel actually kept all the promises he made!
The wedding day approaches and Regina is horrified and terrified with herself. She’s consumed with deep regrets and dark thoughts. She can barely stand being in the same room with Snow. More and more she just wants to ring her little neck, make her pay for the happiness she destroyed. But she still clings to the Regina Daniel loved. He admired her kind spirit and she knew he wouldn’t want her to lose it. Realizing that she’ll lose herself if she stays here she tries to run, get a fresh start somewhere else. She tries to flee but is once more stopped by some magic from her mother. There’s a barrier spell that won’t be removed until after the wedding.
Regina runs to her father in a panic, pleading with him to save her. At first he thinks Regina’s just having cold feet but she confesses that she’s having dark thoughts and that she’s afraid she’ll end up like her mother. She gets him to see that she can’t be happy here. He mentions that Cora has a spell book that might help. Regina sneaks around her mother's room and manages to pawn it. She summons Rumplestilskin, pronouncing his name rather poorly. She's not disturbed by his odd appearance or childish theatrics. However, she does find him a touch odd. Still, he can have whatever mannerisms he pleases so long as he can help her. She pleads for help. And he tells her the only way she can be free is to get rid of her mother. She blanches at the idea of killing her but Rumplestilskin explains that she doesn't need to be killed just trapped in another world. Then she can't bother her in this one. He gives her a portal mirror. All she need do is push Cora in. Not being a fool, Regina understands Rumplestilskin never gives something away for free. She asks what his price is. He says he gave her a favor and one day he expects her to return it. The price is vague but she's desperate to free herself from her mother's strangling clutches.
On the day of her dreaded wedding, Cora notices the mirror. She talks to Regina about winning the heart of the commoners and subtly taking control of the throne. Cora is convinced that the king is weak enough to allow such a thing. And if he proves more troublesome he can be killed off. Regina doesn't want her mother to continue to control her. She doesn't want to win the heart of the people. She just wants her own life back even if Daniel can't be a part of it. Fed up with her mother's cold heart and mannerisms she tries to push her into the mirror. Cora freezes her in place. Cora chastises Regina for trying to get rid of her and Rumplestilskin shows up in the mirror mimicking pushing Cora in. Not wanting to be a puppet forever, furious that she has had no say as to the course of her future, in a moment of rage she channels her magical energies, breaks free of her mother's spell, and pushes her into the mirror which promptly shatters.
Regina plans to leave but runs into Rumplestilskin on the road. She gives him her mother's spell book as a gift for helping her. She is still kind and wants to help those who help her in some way. Rumplestilskin points out that she can't give what already belongs to him. But her intention had been to help as she didn't realize the book was his. He speaks of magic and she insists it isn't for her. Rumplestilksin ignores the sentiment and asks how it felt. She acknowledges that she loves it and that's why she can't continue. She's terrified of ending up like her mother who turned to magic to resolve all issues. She stopped trying to find other solutions and so lost touch with the feelings of people who couldn't cast spells. Rumplestilskin points out that not all magic casters are like her mother. She did enjoy magic and she recalls how powerless she originally was to fight against her mother's spells. She starts to think that it might not be such a terrible idea to learn some magic to at least protect herself. But she's not willing to give Rumplestilskin an answer right away.
She goes off traveling but her heart is still grieving, still pained. Without Daniel it means nothing. She grows more and more depressed until she thinks that maybe magic might be the answer after all. It might be possible to bring Daniel back from the dead. She summons Rumplestilskin and asks him to train her.
Regina eventually returns to marry the king. (Not wishing to burn bridges when she left she said she needed to time to mourn for the loss of her mother. The king being a kind man understood.) She doesn't love the king but feels his resources might be needed if she's to bring Daniel back from the dead. At the moment she has no idea as to what that would require and figures that if a king can't give her what she needs in terms of resources no one can. And her heart still feels so hollow. She hopes that even if the wedding isn't one of love that perhaps the two can grow to care for each other in a non-romantic way while she searches for ways to bring Daniel back. And she just needs something to fill the void, something to feel less empty. She enchants Daniel's body, unwilling to let him go, determined to find a way to bring him back.
The marriage can't provide the warmth or care she wishes for. King Leopold is far more interested in his daughter than Regina, the daughter that stole her happiness, ruined everything. She comes to loathe Snow more and more by the day as the king showers Snow with affection, barely paying any attention to Regina. To make matters worse he constantly talks about his deceased wife, naming her the fairest woman that ever was and the kindest. Regina understands that she has no hope of comparing to his ex-wife in his eyes. The single apple tree she was allowed to grow in the garden is her only source of joy. That and her father's company. At least her sessions with Rumplestilskin continue and that gives her a break from the tedious palace life style.
During one magic session with Rumplestilskin she is instructed to freeze a black unicorn. She does this perfectly but then Rumplestilskin asks her to rip out its heart. Given that the unicorn is innocent and that this reminds her too much of what happened to Daniel she can't do it. Rumplestilskin assures her that if she does it correctly the unicorn won't be harmed it will simply belong to her. She still refuses to do it so Rumplestilskin rips out its heart, demonstrates the power a heart provides by manipulating the unicorn and then crushes the heart, killing it, reminding her that there is no such thing as innocence. Furious at her frailty of heart, he demands that Regina figure out what's holding her back and come to terms with it.
Before another lesson he asks Regina what it is she truly wants. She says power, figuring that's what he wants to hear. But he isn't fooled. He demands to know the truth and she admits her fervent wish to bring back the dead. He's angered by her stupidity, insisting that dead is dead and that magic can't alter that balance. But then Jefferson, a portal jumper, claims he knows someones from another world who can give her what she wants. She agrees to give him a royal pass to travel freely in her kingdom in exchange for transporting the person to the Enchanted Forest.
Jefferson introduces Regina to a very strange wizard indeed. Victor insists that she call him doctor rather than wizard. The wizard inspects Daniel's body and says it's in ideal condition for the procedure. But he needs a strong heart for the operation. Regina takes him to her mother's vault and collects one. During a stormy night, Victor is finally ready to perform the surgery. She wants to watch but Jefferson repeats the wizard's order that they stay back, insisting that his magic is different and that they can't hope to understand it so they should do what he says. Not wishing to risk Daniel's resurrection, she stays outside as instructed, struggling for any glimpse of what's going on. She's not certain that she believes in any deity but she prays, asking that if there is a god to please bring Daniel back to her. He was one of the only good things in her life and she needs his stability. She fears that without him she'll become a monster. King Leopold doesn't care for her at all and she feels nothing but hatred for Snow, the little devil who stole the one person she truly loved from her. But she doesn't want to be filled with hate. She wants to be kind and caring, loving. She knows she can be with Daniel. So please, please, please return him to her.
Her prayers aren't answered. The wizard informs her that the operation failed. She's crushed. She weeps the entire night. But she comes to the conclusion that there are no gods or if they exist they aren't just. They don't care about her pain and suffering so she won't bother with them again, won't waste her time. If she wants something, she needs to grab it herself. And as bringing Daniel back is beyond her, the only thing she can do is make sure the one who made her lose everything knows real torment.
The next morning she moves Daniel's body to a place she visits less frequently, determined to try and let him go. Wishing for him to be brought back won't change anything. It is her affection for a dead man that's holding her back. She needs to stop thinking about how Daniel would have responded and what Daniel would have wanted. It doesn't matter now because he's dead and he's never coming back. What she wants is to extract vengeance on Snow because otherwise she'll never be able to let go of her hatred. Cora's gone if Snow, the last piece of the puzzle, is taken care of then she can be happy and move forward. But to make the King's treasured daughter suffer, she needs more power.
She's enraged to find that Rumplestilskin has found a new apprentice to teach. But she refuses to let him give her up so easily. She proves she's more worthy by ripping out the apprentice's heart and crushing it with her bare hands. Her fingers pulse with excitement. Such raw might, the power over life and death is enticing. She might not be able to bring back the dead but she can affect the balance, bring more people to Daniel's side.
Even with her new mindset, Regina is still unhappy. King Leopold only focuses on his dead wife and insufferable daughter. Depressed, she skips out on a magic session for which Rumplestilskin shows up to scold her. He states that once she's started on the path to darkness there is no turning back. Darkness will consume her. Fearing his words, she orders him to leave. He refuses and explains further that that once the darkness has started to eat away at her, it will progress until she is swallowed whole, and there's no way to fly away from fate. Before he leaves he sets up a new magic lesson and orders her to come and bring the only thing left inside of her, simmering rage.
When he finally leaves she turns her fear to anger, appreciating that emotion better, feeling it has less weakness. She pounds her fist against the balcony again and again until it breaks and she falls. She is rescued by the fairy Tinker Bell. As Tinker Bell is the only one to speak with her in such a calm, friendly manner since she's become queen, the two become quick friends. She respects the fairy's ability to tell her how she really feels even though Regina's queen. She confides in Tinker Bell, speaking of her terrible joke of a marriage and about her hatred towards the little monster who got her one true love killed. Tinker Bell asserts that there could be another love for Regina. She uses fairy dust to lead her to her true love. Tinker Bell urges Regina to talk to the man with the fairy tattoo who is her true love. She leaves to give Regina space but her nerve fails her. She exposed her heart to Daniel and he wound up dead. She doesn't have the courage to risk another loss like that.
Tinker Bell comes back later to see how the meeting went. Regina lies about the man, unwilling to admit her fear. But Tinker Bell sees right through her lies. Having exposed Regina's weakness she lashes out and declares Tinker Bell a terrible fairly, hoping to put her on the defensive and not make her face her true concerns. Tinker Bell says she'll get in trouble for stealing the fairy dust unless Regina goes and talks to him. But Regina just sends her away, still too scared to risk exposing her heart again.
Later Regina is introduced to the king's new friend a genie. Originally she doesn't plan to do much with him. But it soon becomes obvious he's enamored with her. Having given up on love entirely by this point, she's not interested even though he's paying her the attention the king never does. But she thinks his feelings can prove useful to her. She's sick of sharing her castle and power with a king who doesn't care for her in the slightest and insults her with his indifference.
Although the mirror the genie gave her, insisting that she will see herself as the fairest in all the land through his eyes, gives her a small sense of comfort and support after the king insisted that Snow is the fairest in all the land, she's still determined to manipulate the genie. Love brings only pain and suffering. That is what Daniel taught her.
She writes about having found another love in her diary, knowing the king will find it and punish her for it. King Leopold is furious and locks Regina away in a tower. Since she can't divorce the king she asks her father to bring her a box with freedom in it. Ever the faithful father, Henry complies except he gives the box to the genie to give to her. She opens the box to reveal a two headed viper, pretending she intends to commit suicide but the genie grabs the snake and kills her husband with it, proclaiming that now they can be together.
Regina makes sure a palace guard found the snake. She warns the genie that as the snake originates from his homeland the crime will be traced back to him. She feigns sadness but offers hope in the form of a ship to smuggle him away. The genie realizes Regina's true intentions but still loves her. He uses his last wish on the lamp to be with her forever. To her delight the wish turns him into a magic mirror. She acts as though this is only useful so she can use him but secretly deep in her heart she is at least a little grateful that someone genuinely cares for her and that someone will stay with her forever.
She pretends to comfort Snow after the funeral, insisting they are both in mourning. But secretly Regina is pleased. Leopold never cared for her and is now dead. The power belongs to her. And she's now one giant leap closer to making the brat who stole everything from her pay. She plots to have Snow killed. The magic mirror suggests that a huntsman would be perfect for the job. A huntsman is brought to her and she promises that if he brings back Snow's heart she'll outlaw the slaughtering of wolves in his kingdom as he cares a great deal for them and Regina doesn't really care about hunting one way or the other.
The huntsman returns with a heart and a letter from Snow. Regina detests Snow above all else and refuses to read it. So the Huntsman reads it for her but she snatches it and throws it in the fire before he can finish. The girl is a liar and a breaker or promises. She won't be fooled by Snow ever again. She was a wolf in sheep's clothes, a true monster.
She grabs the heart and tries to magically insert it into one of the collection boxes in the vault. As nothing happens she quickly realizes the heart is not Snow's. Enraged by the Huntsman's betrayal she rips out his heart as collateral for the one he failed to collect. She squeezes the heart, to stress her level of power over the Huntsman, declaring him hers now and forever and that he will share her bed and do whatever she likes. The sharing the bed comment is meant to be cold and callous but deep down Regina is still lonely. Daniel is gone and the king was never even warm to her. If she can't experience love she at least wants a pale echo of it. She also warns him never to cross her again because next time he does he'll die.
Some time after this her father is kidnapped by the Queen of Hearts. She runs to Jefferson to take her to Wonderland. He insists he's retired but after showing him how much he can't give his daughter given his salary, he finally agrees to the trip. She manages to retrieve her father, restoring him with a magic mushroom. Then the two of them exit, leaving Jefferson behind. She feels awful about the betrayal as Jefferson was one of the only people who was kind to her after becoming queen. She really liked him. But she suspected by this point that not just any heart would suffice for the Dark Curse. She feared that it would have to be the heart of the thing she loved most. And after Daniel she knew that was Jefferson. She hoped that if he was in Wonderland in a different world, he'd be safe. She also rationalized it away thinking about how he failed her many years back when it came to finding a man who could restore Daniel. He'd given her false hope. And he was the one who had chosen to come for something as superficial as money. He had his daughter and he left her! Regina could never have left Daniel or her own child. And she certainly wouldn't leave a daughter if she had one! No amount of money in the world would bring Daniel back. Money couldn't make people happy. Jefferson should have realized this.
Later the queen hears of Snow's whereabouts but arrives to find her missing. Even with the guarantee of a reward no one says anything about Snow. Furious that Snow is so loved after everything she did, Regina orders all the villagers killed. She vents to Rumplestilskin about how the villagers love Snow and hate her. She determines that the best way to get close to Snow is to disguise herself. But it would take years to learn the proper magic. So she demands that Rumplestilskin do it for her. He agrees so long as she breaks ties with King George which she willing does.
Disguised as a peasant girl, Regina is horrified to see the commoners hitting a stick effigy resembling the Queen since it is rumored Her Majesty doesn't have a heart. More upset than she wants to admit, she tries to stop the commoners and is instead blamed by the guards for the commotion. Regina is about to be executed when her worst enemy saves her. Snow and Regina travel together. Regina expresses her surprise that Snow is saving a stranger. Snow tells Regina about the time a stranger saved her from a wild horse and how she learned two strangers can form genuine connections. Snow says she views the queen as someone in a state of constant pain but someone who was once good. Regina is moved by Snow's kind words and begins to wonder if being good would make the pain go away. Anger and hatred don't seem to fill the void.
Snow says that if the queen was sincere about changing they could be a family again. However, when they reach a village that has been slaughtered by the queen, she takes back her words, insisting that the queen is pure evil after all. Having reconsidered her stance, wondering if family wouldn't make her happier she tries to point out that the queen was the one who saved Snow from the horse. As Snow hadn't mentioned that before she figures out who Regina is and tries to shoot her. Regina flees back to Rumplestilskins' tower, once again feeling betrayed by the loathsome Snow. She is fickle as well as liar. Snow is her enemy for life. If the commoners love Snow then they can never love Regina and if they love her enemy instead of her than they're the enemy and must suffer. She vows to punish them all.
Snow continues to elude the king's guards and is rescued by the mermaid Ariel. Regina spies on the two. Then she comes to Ariel in the guise of Ursula, offering Ariel a bracelet that can make her human so she can be with her Prince Eric but only if someone else becomes a mermaid in her stead. As expected, Ariel snaps the bracelet on Snow's wrist and she's made immobile. Regina reveals herself and tells Ariel to get out of there as Snow will die either way but Ariel can get her happy ending. (She has no grudge against Ariel at the moment.) But Ariel refuses to leave a friend behind and stabs Regina with a fork. Shen takes the bracelet off of Snow, reverting them to their original forms and the two swim away. Never one to forget a grudge, Regina takes away Ariel's voice so she can't confess her feelings to her prince. She relishes the fact that Eric will never even know Ariel had feelings for him which is a fate far worse than outright rejection.
Regina learns Rumplestilskin has acquired a girl to tend his castle. She ambushes Belle on the road when she has the chance, planting the idea that love's true kiss will break his curse as the Dark One, hoping to relieve Rumplestilskin of his powers, making her the most powerful sorcerer in all the land. Belle tries to turn Rumplestilskin back into a man but he's too scared to believe Belle's love is legitimate. Belle leaves and Regina figures out where she went. She ambushes the girl and traps her in a jail cell. Given that Rumplestilskin had no intention of kissing Belle and losing his powers, Regina would make sure him and his love weren't together. She couldn't be with hers. Rumplestilskin had done as many dark deeds if not more. Why should he have some measure of happiness? She recalls all the times he made her feel weak and horrendous when she was depressed. So she visits him on the pretense of wanting to make a deal about a mermaid. But she uses the opportunity to lie about Belle's terrible end, saying she jumped from the tower after being flayed. He orders her out but she lingers to make one last comment as he always did when she was rattled. Before leaving she mocks him, saying the castle is getting dusty and that he should find a new girl.
She exchanges the dark curse for the sleeping curse with her witch and friend Maleficent. One day while she's traveling in the woods she captures a woodcutter. She later finds his two children Hansel and Gretal who are searching for him. The queen uses them to steal something she had lost to the blind witch. They successfully retrieve a poison red apple. Regina offers to let the children live with her as they have proven resourceful. But this is merely the rationalization. She is still lonely and would like company. She does have a soft spot for children still. But the children refuse her and demand to have their father returned like promised. Hurt and enraged about being rejected, she curses the children to be forever searching for their father in the forest. She brings the father out and demands to know why the children spurned her. He tells her that family never abandons one another. Frustrated at a level of family devotion she doesn't know or understand she curses the father back into the forest to forever search for her children. She then infuses the apple with the sleeping curse.
Regina figures out that King George has captured Snow's true love. She comes in time to stop the execution. He releases Prince Charming into Regina's custody after she promises he will suffer more by being used to destroy his true love. Charming is locked away and Snow comes to rescue him. But he's not there and has been replaced by a magic mirror. Regina sets up a parley back at the stables where it all began. Regina is surprised to find that her despair wasn't entirely buried even after all these years. When she sees the place Daniel died she nearly cries. Snow arrives and Regina takes her to his grave, finally explaining the truth. She impresses how his death is entirely Snow's fault. She broke her promise and because of that Daniel lost his life and she lost her heart. The little demon tries to negotiate a truce saying that both of them had suffered enough as Regina killed Snow's father. But she is not satisfied. Snow has her true love while Regina's is in a grave. Snow must suffer more for what she did. She threatens to kill Prince Charming if Snow doesn't eat the poisoned apple Snow eats it and collapses. Regina is happy for the first time in a long while, feeling that she has won, feeling that Daniel's killer finally got a suitable punishment for her lies. But sadly it is not to be. The Huntsman betrayed her and let Charming escape. And he woke Snow up with true love's kiss.
Eventually Regina joins forces with King George to put an end to Snow White and Prince Charming. But King George proved all but useless, being defeated rather quickly. And Regina was tricked. The blue fairy finds her and binds her with fairy dust. Locked up in a cell, her father comes to visit her and express his deepest regrets for her state. He blames himself for not taking proper care of her. She tells him that she loves him and that he was one of the few good things in her life. The next day she is brought to the scafold for execution but she will not show fear to anyone. Fear is weakness and if she will die she will die strong. She shouts that her only regret is that she could not cause more pain and more suffering. Snow stops the execution, pitying her. Regina is disgusted, being saved by her enemy yet again.
Snow gives Regina an opportunity to redeem herself. She allows her out of her cell. Regina responds by trying to stab Snow with her knife, unwilling to forgive her for all the pain and misery she caused her. But the dagger has a protection spell. It was meant as a test to see if Regina could change. As she couldn't she is banished. Rumplestilskin visits Regina and reminds her the protection spell only works in the Enchanted Forest and that Snow's and Charming's wedding is soon. This reminds her of the dark curse.
Regina barges in on Snow's wedding and tells her of her plans for the curse to inspire fear and chaos. She then goes after Malefecient to retrieve the Dark Curse. Her friend doesn't give it over willingly but Regina wins their duel. Her friend was too busy protecting her pet. More proof that love is weakness.
Later Hook breaks into Regina's castle and tries to figure out how to kill the Dark One from Belle. Finding she knows nothing he nearly kills her. Regina stops him. She tells Hook she knows who he wants to kill and why and that she can help. She enchants Hook's hand to rip out people's hearts and gives him the task of killing her mother. She gives him a magical portal hat to travel to Wonderland, explaining the rule that the same number of people must exist as enter. She gives him a corpse so that he can take her mother's corpse back. She promises in the new world she's making Hook can get revenge on Rumplestilskin. She doesn't bother to mention that he'll have lost his memories.
After he returns with Cora's body she sends him away to say goodbye. She's now somewhat come to grips with her mother's harsh upbringing. She understand now that love is weakness and so her mother had to die because she still loved her. After everything her mother put her through, she isn't entirely certain herself why she loves her but she does believe that her mother was trying to help her even if she went about things horribly. In the end the only real lesson she got was that love is weakness. She lays a rose on her mother's chest and leaves to enact the Dark Curse.
Sacrificing the heart of her most prized horse resulted in failure. Her father talks her into seeking out the person who gave her the curse to see why it didn't work. She sneaks in as a mouse to visit an imprisoned Rumplestilskin. She reverts to her normal form and demands answers. Rumplestilskin first speaks of the prophecy of Snow's and Charming's child that will break the curse. Then he tells her she must sacrifice the heart of the person she loves most. She insists that isn't possible as he's long since dead. Rumplestilskin says there must be someone else she loves and she realizes that person is her father.
She returns to her father's side and vents her frustrations about how Snow's very existence is a blight that taints her happiness. He gathers that for the curse to work his daughter must take his heart. Her father tries to tell her that it's not too late to leave revenge and hate behind. They can start over somewhere as a family. She pretends to agree but then grabs his heart, believing it's impossible for her to find happiness in this world but it might be possible in another one. Using her father's heart she casts the curse. Before leaving she places a rose on her father, the last person alive that she truly loved.
Regina comes to speak with Rumplestilskin one last time. He warns her that by casting the curse she had created a hole in her heart and someday she will find the need to fill it. She doesn't take his advice seriously and leaves.
She comes to the castle in time to see Snow hugging her unconscious love, Prince Charming. She's enraged to discover their child has already been whisked away in a magic wardrobe but takes great pleasure in knowing Snow and Charming will be separated for good. The curse gives no one happy endings.
The curse strikes and the Evil Queen is reborn as Regina Mills of Story Brook. As far as she knows she is the only person who remembers the Enchanted Forest. But feeling empty like Rumplestilskin says, eventually she adopts a baby, a boy she names Henry after her father.
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Setting: One week into the first curse, immediately after Owen leaves. It wasn’t enough! It just wasn’t enough. The curse was supposed to be her happy ending. She’d separated Snow White from her beloved Prince Charming. Snow was so far gone she never even realized she’d lost him. She didn’t even know who she was. The girl was practically afraid of her own shadow. Every time Regina came near her, she just jumped and tried to back away as quickly as possible. She didn’t fight back. There was just...Nothing. A hole in her heart. That’s what it felt like. Nothing she did...Nothing satisfied her. It was like she couldn’t feel properly. She still had emotions. There was frustration and anger. But she wasn’t content. She wasn’t happy like she was supposed to be. Rumple told her before. “Something’s missing, isn’t it dearie? Now there’s a hole in your heart.” He’s said she’d underestimated the price of what she’d done. She hadn’t wanted to believe him. But now...Now she couldn’t help but wonder if he’d been right. At first when Owen and Kurt Flynn came to town she’d been horrified and livid. This was her curse. Strangers weren’t welcome. Strangers weren’t even supposed to get in. It was just supposed to be the people she brought over. But then...Owen had given her something, something special, something she hadn’t even realized was missing. The child had given her meaning, purpose. She was...happy. She liked to see him smile. Regina had only wanted to look after him, be with him. She’d offered his father a job; but, he’d turned it down. He wished to take Owen away from her! Why?! Why was everything precious snatched away?! Was someone like Regina not allowed to be happy for more than a moment?! One brief week of joy and then...like everything else in her life, it all went to hell. They’d tried to leave so Regina tried to stop them. She knew they could be happy there! Own wanted to stay! Kurt would like Storybrooke too if he’d only give it a chance! She knew they could both live happily and peacefully there. But Kurt wasn’t even willing to consider it! He was going to take Owen away, the only thing that made her happy! She couldn’t handle that. Not again! She’d lost Daniel and her father and so many things. Why?! Why did she have to lose Owen too?! The huntsmen had restrained the father. Regina had managed to get to the little boy. She assured him everything was fine, that she wasn’t going to hurt him. Crying, he’d asked why she was doing this. All she’d wanted was for him to stay! He said he’d liked it here! But when she asked Owen if he’d wanted to stay, he’d said, “Not like this”. Seeing how scared and upset he was, Regina had given him something precious, something rare, an apology and a genuine explanation. She’d told him that she was sorry that she’d only wanted them to be happy. And then she’d let him go. She wasn’t like her mother. She wouldn’t force a child to stay, not when they wanted to be somewhere else. It had killed her; but, she’d released him, let him run off. She knew she’d never see him again. He wouldn’t be able to find his way back to Storybrooke. It was some sort of miracle him and his father had found it in the first place. They’d just happened to be camping in the right place at the right time. But now...Owen had left. He wasn’t in the middle of everything anymore. And the magic she’d used to build Storybrooke, it kept everyone she hadn’t ripped away from their worlds out. Even should he come back, Own wouldn’t be able to see it. Owen gone...She felt so empty. Her eyes were moist and she knew she was close to crying. But she couldn’t! She wouldn’t! There would be no point! But...she needed comfort. And before she’d realized it, her strides had brought her to the absolute last place she should go. Why was she here? She’d find no peace here, not behind these walls. But all the same, after all they’d shared, she couldn’t get his face out of her head. And she needed someone, someone who knew what was going on. Hatred would be better than the blank glances everyone else gave her. They didn’t know the real her! They only thought she was some scary mayor. Almost no one even called her Regina. But Jefferson would. At least she hoped he would. She needed that right now, someone to see her as Regina, not as a mayor or an evil queen, just Regina. She was still human after all. If she rang the doorbell, she wasn’t sure if Jefferson would even answer. And she had to see him. So instead of doing the polite thing, she extracted her skeleton keys, rifling through them until she found the one with Jefferson’s symbol, the top hat. She slid the key into the lock and turned until she heard that satisfying click that said her work was done. She pushed open the door and stepped inside, letting the door swing shut behind her. “Jefferson,” she called out softly, voice choked up. Weak. Even to her ears, the tone sounded pitiful, pathetic even. What was she even doing here? What did she expect from him?
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